this place i've found myself trapped in. i'm so confused. i look at myself in the mirror and see this face, but i feel like a whole different person, yet i know i'm not like that. i know i'm not that. i know i'm not that person i look like, and i'm not who i intend to be, so i'm lost, lost within all these masks i've put on my face. what do i believe. what do i want. who do i trust. layers and layers of questions that solve nothing for me.