why did He put us in this world when we're truly destined for another?
September 20 [Thu], 2007, 23:50
this morning i woke up with this feeling that nothing i have belongs to me, without even realizing it. i found myself being thankful for this car that i have to use and referring to it in my mind as "my car" but not really thinking of it as belonging to me. because really, it's just being loaned to me for a time. and then i thought of my bed and my apartment and everything else i didn't have before i came to sb and how i felt when i got them. they were like gifts that i searched for and i found them and for a time they get to be mine, but really they still belong to the person who gave them. i should feel the same way about brenton because it's only in this life that we even have the option of marriage. strange that this morning i can be so emotionally unattached from all my possessions, but last night my emotional attachment to one person was very clear.
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