Changing From The Inside Out
Or you do not to listen to them you probably different that you were a few months ago, too. We changing all the time, if we lucky and open to change. I like change. If we buoyant, strong, that buzziest of psychological words these days.
When I broke my arm on December 14, I cut off all my hair. There was only so much I wanted to impose on my husband Marty who was doing everything there is to do around this place. Cleaning, cooking, caring for our dogs. Chauffeuring me hither and thither, here, there and everywhere.
Since then, and after another haircut, I am utterly shorn. I not only have and wear hair, I have up and go hair. liberating hair is but a superficial difference. Inside, where I have lived these 63 years, or made a semblance of living, the landscape is transformed. My ebullient personality, my default mode, is but a cover, I will confess. It a great mask behind which the real me lives. A me, no one really wants to know.
I don blame them. I getting a little tired of her, too.
It seems people prefer the upbeat me. Even my family, people with kind and generous hearts who wish not to look back and reflect anymore.
To be honest, I prefer the sunny, bubbly me, too.
Quite frankly, I getting rather tired of reflection as a mode Nike Free Runs of being. I long to be a simple soul who doesn question every motive. I would rather be a person of action. Rather than understand every person leitmotif, including my own, I would rather stay in the present rather than try to alter it or psychoanalyze it.
Let leave that to the shrinks and the onion peelers I just want to know. Just Be. Just Do. End the dwelling. Stay in the present. Keep one foot ahead of the other. And like Nike, Do It and not ponder the consequences and drive myself mad with what be. Or should be.
Last week, I visited my mother in her Florida home. I went swimming. Slithered into a bathing suit and luxuriated in a pool that was warm Cheap Nike Frees enough to be a bathtub.
Then, after three days of walking in sandals and shorts, I came down with a very bad cold/flu/cough and spent the rest of my week sleeping and hacking. the 100Day cough, she informed me. I returned sick and it was spring here.
Here the thing don worry about what I eat or about the fact that some of my clothes no longer fit me very well. Yesterday, when I had my passport picture taken, I didn hate it, though I wasn allowed to smile.
Walking my dogs is a simple pleasure, not an obsession about working off calories. I never think about calories anymore. Just eating three meals and two snacks a day.
Now, my biggest challenge will be reinventing myself. Again are a for that transformation. After 30 years on staff at a daily newspaper, I practiced reinvention.
Right now, even if I must do parttime work until the career makes itself known to me. I do it.
It strange to have a hodgepodge of fascinating skills one must turn into a but it not as if I haven done it before.
Now, I just want to make the most of the moment or live as Bren Brown would say. Embrace one vulnerability. Accept, no love your imperfections. And wow, I have a list Nike Free Sale a mile long of them. But I don worry about changing those. I beginning to like them. Even when I look in the mirror.