i hope it snows
i hope it snows
i hope it snows!
i want a white, white christmas
=)
class gathering on saturday
the attendance seems great right now
let's hope everyone who said they'll turn up, turn up
then it'd be great =)
some things should be left unsaid
some things should be left unknown
if unravelled, will only hurt others in the process
this is life.
i hope we get to go to the party on the 26th
if we get there in time somehow
but oh well, if not, we'd just go shopping! =)
and there's also mubank?
maybe~ haha.
deliberating whether i should go to namsan
colddddddd *brr*
but the view is gorgeous~
until now
i still have yet to confirm the entire itinerary
everything's a vague
but yeah man, shall just go with the flow =)
eli totally made my day last evening
found some friends who were once friends of mine
not a very easy task to handle
to sit down and talk eye to eye, is like....................... getting me to bungee.
when i already have a fear of height, a terrible one at that.
we shall see.
this is a totally incoherent entry
but i do not give two hoots about it.
joshi just came online to remind me kim wants me to go to japan when i'm free
great. just when my japan trip got cancelled like 2 weeks ago
just great. what nice timing, kim.
but at least i know i'll have a tour guide in japan if i go
*self-comforting ain't working..*
suddenly i'm feeling super high for junechan
XD
jonghyun.
biz class.
bada ylbfb
conference room 101.
*kya~*
i hope everything goes well..
i realised there're lots of things i wanna do in korea
but somehow i've no idea how am i gonna juggle and dump them in
myeongdong
dongdaemun
namdaemun
namsan
everland *HAVETOGO*
lotteworld
apgujeong rodeo st
SM
NH + yeonseupshil
noraebang
hyojin's place/myusai
meet hyunjeong for dinner
meet up with jikki
meet hyejin/hyeju/hyunsook
OH MAN. i only have freaking 5days (minus air time)
how on earthhhhhhhhh am i gonna do everything
great. my mum just woke up to get me to sleep >.<
it's holidaysssssssssssssssssss mummy >.<
why can't she just let me do everything/anything that i wanna do
i'm not disturbing anyone
and i'm definitely not sleeping less than 8 hours a day
it's just that i'm sleeping later that's all argh
randomly saw a photo
and i thought he looked like nich
totally gave me a scare 0-o
i need to stop getting upset over stupid things
need to keep my emotions in check pretty badly
though i think people who know me from this year only
probably think i'm some happy-go-lucky, cheerful person
i'd say i can exercise control a lot better these days.. hmm.
some random song just popped into my head
"i hate myself for loving you"
i think the last time i heard it was at hard rock
at ueno? ueno station............ above the shopping arena
when we had the farewell party~
just finished completing a task for junechan
hopefully it gets chosen, and yay! good for her =)
even though it's under my name
but as long as she gets to go it's fine =D
i think i shall go to bed
sleep stops me from thinking
though my brain is still working..
may it all be reflected/dispelled in my dreams~
goodnight world
feeling really proud of my "art" piece
since i did rara's make up for comms ball
and cao said it's nice! so did um, junhao? junhow? junhou?
i dont know how to spell his name................ >.<
but anyways!
it turned out perfectly fine for the rest of the night
since the fakies didnt fall off
and i think the smokeyness didnt turn out too badly
it was just mini smokey anyway hehehe~
too bad i forgot to take a picture after i finished her make up LOL
which reminds me...
saw photos of our younger days in her room
those days when cameras weren't digital
and there were no applications like facebook, friendster etc.
couldnt just digitally share pictures, but had to print them out
<斜>"we are young, we are free.."
totally apt for describing those pictures!
those were the days when we really had nothing much to care about
attending funny apple beach party i think? LOL
how random was that anyway~
i remember back in sec 3 that rara was thinking of doing dentistry and me doing surgery
but i guess
when you grow older, things just change
perspectives and mindsets evolve and you start to see where you come from
and now we're both on totally different paths LOL
but well, it's good to dream
doing the make up today just made me further wonder if the choice i made is right
i may like economics, but is there something i like even more?
brings me back to the days when i first meddled with make-up
i think, when i was thirteen? when i discovered the wonders of eyeshadow/mascara
sounds a little dumb now, but i actually thought of becoming a make-up artiste
dreaming about how i'd see my handiwork on models on the runway
or how perfectly flawless skin some artistes have
when in actual fact they've terrible acne scars or something
i wonder how my parents would have reacted
if i ever, just mildly, mentioned that i'd proceed to laselle after i got out of RG?
i think they'd so flip. hmmm.
oh well
i dont think i've much of a choice now anyway....
shall just experiment those smokey/colourful stuff on my own face. ha.
does anyone still come here, really?
anyways.
i'm still alive, in case anyone bothered. LOL
ever since the end of the last paper
i've been busying myself
busying with what really?
i've no idea
but i'm just busy
doing all the mini things, minute and insignificant
lots of people that i havent met up with
but i'm pretty glad there's a j2 glass gathering planning underway
hope it pulls through =)
i'm hooked on "in my room"
*sigh*
if only i never knew that that song was gonna be the OST for the korean version of HYD
and
i cant believe jh did "y si fuera ella"
it's a.......... tough song, really.
wide range + odd tempo...
it's really easy to slip and mess up. hmm =/
finally got my new laptop and hdd
500gb hdd is WIN. 
i think i'd totally not survive without it.........
continually deleting all my stuff 
ying told me cheon's gonna be on oogyeol~
his partner................isnt very great. =/
it's gonna fall on the sunday before we fly off to korea
hmm.
which reminds me
i'm arriving korea the same time that shinee's leaving for tw
LOL キーくん、楽しく行って来てね！
so. i shall go to everland with ying 
and hope that i wont freeze.......
and i wanna get key's camera at yongsan!
pink polaroid is 
i seriously think my korea trip is kinda agenda-less
LOL
ying has fti, junie won't be around half the time~
i shall just shop to my max.
and get my hair done toooo~~ 
MUST get something from rodeo st. this time round
came back empty handed the other time
since i thought everything was expensive 
but the prices seriously cant surpass japan's
lalala~
now that i've successfully curbed the urge to club
gotta, um, start to "not think about clubbing"
step 2 of my "quit clubbing" campaign
LOL
i hope i wont end up clubbing in korea though..
since i think hyejin and hyeju are back in korea~
and jikki's there too..... though i doubt jikki will club..?
somehow korean and japanese girls can drink damn well 
well well.
shall replace clubbing with noraebang.... i think ying wouldnt mind 
so much happened in the paste 10 days that i dont even know what to say..
there's a need for me to continue hanging out with this specific bunch
though not that i'd met up much with them, or at all, in the past 1 week
but.
i'm starting to find myself drifting
i won't say i belonged in the first place
in this day and age, what belongs, really?
mentality, outlook, perspective, goals........everything differ so much.
i can't even pinpoint whats the same..
oh well.
the glass is half full, not half empty.
*yosh*
will be doing make up on tuesday for ra-pok
LOL
my very first time doing for someone outside of school
oh dear. i hope i do fine~ =P
havent done make-up for like, a year or so?
the big 2 is looming~~~~~~~~~
my 19th year was spent.......doing what?
okay.
i'd say the first half of my 19th year is absolutely fun
made great friends, experienced different stuff
and learnt to be independent
but the second half was.........okay?
uni's a drag. really...
oh well.
shall not think of weirdo stuff today.
cos.
it's on-tofu's birthday
ジンキや〜! １９歳 お誕生日 おめでとう！
最高なリーダなりますね！
ユノ先輩より いいリーダなりましょう、ね？
「オニュサンテ」が 忘れないね〜
i dont know what's stopping me from putting this on IPLE. >.<
first day after exams
i SERIOUSLY slept to my fill
slept at 3am yesterday or something
and woke up slightly before noon
XD
yay~~~
finally i dont have to wake up early to mug/go to school/finish tutorial
spent my entire day reading stories
like online novels and stuff
oh man~ i missed readings these thingys
it's been a longggggg time since i had time to sit down and read a book properly
the last time was like, in march or something
during the 1 week break between school terms
the book by murakami~ =)))
it's so hard to find nice books in japan... in english that is.
which reminds me..
the last book i read before flying off from japan was a biography or something similar
can't really remember the title
but it was about the monarchy and the princess.......
standing in the shinjuku bookstore~ LOL
i miss ootoyaaaa T_T
why isn't there ootoya in singapore.....
(junie says i'm a shinee fan-in-the-making, with full potential. 0-o omg dont want...............sm needs to stop getting to me time after time)
shinhwa, db, now shinee. oh man.
now that i think about it
it's a 4-yearly cycle.......... goodness.
sheesh.
totally forgot what i wanted to write about..........
hmm.
this is the first holiday that i'm having after such a long time
japan seriously doesn't count
there's the pressure and nagging feeling of waiting for A's results to be out
and after results were out, there's the worry about university/courses etc.
and throughout the past 19 years (going on 20 years) of my life
none of the holidays are real holidays
even PSLE. goodness
psle, the pressure of getting into a good school...
and every year, you just worry about getting into a good class/stream/passing out
bla bla bla bla bla
sigh.
oh well.
i guess i can start living now?
hahaha
term has come to an end
shall spend another day reflecting about it
perhaps after results are out or something
maybe will do it on the plane
=)
and
yes.
i declared my major about 3 hours ago.
i guess no turning back?
shall do some proper sem2 timetable scheduling tomorrow
though i know roughly what core modules i wanna take
but there are still stuff like breadth and UE and SSA stuff to consider
oh well
3 core modules
i wonder if i can take it..............
key's monologue refuses to cooperate with me
ARGHHHHHHHHH
it's the 3rd time it's restarting
oh man.
shall survive with YT for the time being -_-"
i'm finally free!
finally finally finally!!!
at least for the next 4 weeks minimum
and
i'm on post-exam high
just felt TOTALLY hyper after the last paper
i was feeling absolutely sleepy during js paper
it's a you-either-know-or-don't-know kind of paper
but
yea, hopefully i do fine.
since i totally didn't study
fri sat sun was spent shinee-ing.........somehow. =x
so. yeah. i dont think the last minute revision this morning helped anyways
=x
whooops.
i mean, i only know gozoku kyouwa since it's romanized and in japanese -_-"
(oh man i just got junie to help me ask where new got his pink jacket
i want that jacket~~~~ >w<)
so.
i'm happy now!
cos i managed to find the purple dress that i saw with rapok the other day
the one that i decided i shall KIV
and since that day, i couldn't find it anywhere else -__-"
and yay! the salesperson at vivo located it at the parkway branch
i shall go down and pick it up or something tomorrow
=DDDDD
*is totally happy*
shall go plan out my korea itinerary soon!
ying's stuff planned already
i shall see how i shall shape mine around the main one
since we gotta incorporate sukira in and stuff too
hmm.
and i'm finally going to SMe after 2 years!
two whole yearsssssssssss
and in winter! {ラブラブ}
the last time i went it was in autumnnnnn
so no snow~ now i REALLY hope by the time i'm there there's still snow
experiencing snow twice in a year~~~
i've a thousand and one things to do
but doing everything with heart!
haha
1. brush up korean
2. revise jap
3. plan korea trip
4. clear my laptop of ALL shokuras and hyakushikis for incoming shinee, bb, ukiss stuff
(gonna start burning and transferring gigs worth of stuff 0_o)
5. pick up the new laptop in 2 weeks' time and configure everything
6. shoon's birthday!
7. xmas presents for the "kids" =X
woohoo~
lucky 7!
i feel like i'm going crazy
and i've a million and one people to meet up with
=DDD
and to think i just met sranj and ruth today
though didn't get to spend a long time with them =(
but they're going clubbing!
yayyyy! i'm gonna tag along XD
la la la
life's just great.
=)
hmm
wrong time to be doing something like that
but can’t help it…
ft’s songs are stimulating
but still, doing thinking at the wrong time -_-“
there’s still one more paper in approximately 22 hours time…
and 24 hours to officially ending the semester 1 ordeal
yikes
was talking to joshua the other day when he drove
and we dropped by katong mall/complex/shopping centre?
i don’t even know what’s that place called..
made me realize that i missed out so much in my childhood years
really, what have i done in my past 19 years
and to think i’m gonna be 20 soon…… the BIG two.
a little more than a year till i’m officially an adult under the law
(okay fellow lawyers-to-be friends, feel free to correct me..)
feeling a tad dumb now
cos im jealous over something that’s really trivial
like, MINUTE, kinda thing
grr. this is bad
occurrences over the past few days, if not weeks, just made me think even more
god is fair right? or whichever omniscient, omnipotent being around..
the more i look at it, the more i think so..
and again, it’s not life that suck
it’s one’s own attitude that sucks, and thus in turn you’d think life sucks
blessed with brains, your bound to lack in something
blessed with brains and looks, your bound to also lack in something else
those who think there are people who are around blessed with brains, looks, wealth, love etc.
then, that’s a major mistake
there’s bound to be something lacking somehow
it’s how you look at it to deem it as a blessing or misfortune
(i bet there are people who’ll read this and go, “yeah right. you’re a damned optimistic so you know nothing.”)
and..
this sounds absolutely familiar like it popped up in my mind eons ago
just that i’ve no idea what triggered this thought..
where does love go after it ends?
what’s are memories.. the smiles, the people, the laughter, the happiness
but we live in reality (or so i hope)
after it ends, does it go into the trash can, scrunched up, thrown away, and lost forever?
why does it seem like, with memories, nothing can be thrown away absolutely?
and to think, suddenly, Hiroshima mon amour just flashed through my mind
how timely
even after lit exams it refuses to be forgotten
what irony~
バカみたい、何が待っていますか
ナミダ停まらない
なくちゃったのあいじょうどこに行った
ヒトリ町で歩いて、何が探している
あたしもわかない
今までのモクヒョウ、本当にあたしの？
サラングイゲモイェヨ
サラングイオヂイェヨ
サラングイッバジゴシッポ
クンでオットッケヘヤヅエヨ
ナエチョッサラングイヤ
my brain's getting flooded with a million and one things to say right now
for.... school/exams
ahhhhhh PS1101E is finally OVERRRRRRRRRRR!
that's a HUGE load of my mind
like totally
since that was the paper i was worried about the most
and to think at first i was just, brain-drained of anything to write
but as i wrote
somehow the words just started to flow
thank goodness i didnt run out of time
and everyone thought that the paper was okay.
which means. i hope i dont do too badly to put myself below average =/
for......random things
was home reallllly early today
at least not the intended 6+pm i thought i would
since by the time i planned to leave school was about 4?
in fact i think by 520 i was home haha
cos joshua drove! LOL
which reminds me
i think i SO should have taken SSA module
according to him, i managed to "summarise sg soc in 5 mins"
tsk. maybe next sem. hmm.
for~ my intuition!
was home early, so wanted to look for junie
since i didnt manage to talk to her properly this morning
(busy trying to cram political science theories at the last minute)
turns out that she called me in the end
and i think i ended the call with, "aiyah, dont worry.
they will postpone it in the end, really. believe me okay"
and 2 minutes later
she called to tell me, "joey called and told me it's postponed"
SEEEE. oh my. someone needs to employ me. REALLY.
that's round 1.
round 2 was regarding JE.
i can't remember who, but we were talking about JE + korea
and somehow no one really agreed with me about JE/KAT-TUN in korea
i was like, "kat-tun WILL venture into korea. really"
turns out that when i went to check lj comms
kat-tun INDEED is going to debut in korea
wonderful.
and it's just, like, 2 weeks away from that. 0-o
see see see. people need to START BELIEVING ME. goodness.
momo: look forward to seeing kisu okay.
for......travel plans.
bangkok trip cancelled.
T_T no shopping
TT_TT no meeting with jokiee
=((( stupid protestors. stupid political situation. stupid PM.
grr. spoil my fun.
and.
kisses are gonna have a meeting on 7th dec!
joint meeting plus birthday celebration.
=(((( why is there no christmas partyyyyyyyyyy
if there is i can gooooooooo T_T
okie i need to stop whining.
jok suddenly asked if i'm gonna work at SM
hahahahha 0_o
no way~~~~
yay~ dinner's ready
what a title for a blog entry
but
that was how i totally felt after ec1101e
disaster
horrendous
horrific
AVALANCHE.
like. really.
totally smashed my confidence in taking econs as my major
=(
mcqs are bombs, really.
but feeling so much better knowing that everyone thought that way
i think i shall not mourn over it anymore
23rd dec, then i'll start worrying..
playing a stupid game with kim now
i think i'm annoying the hell out of him LOL
absolutely refuse to reply him in mandarin haha
i think i'd just die if he starts typing in korean =X
bet his jap is wayyy better than mine now
especially since he's in sen mon.................... >.<
most dreaded paper tomorrow
*sigh*
after tomorrow i'm like 80% liberated
e.lit is so much easier to study
tsk.
JS is just................ last minute lah
i dont really care about JS anyway -_-"
oh well.
i find myself highly heck care about this exam
-_-"
im seriously not done mugging
and i dont think i'm gonna be done with it anytime soon
=O *oops*
i think it's because no one fails uni
it's not a do-or-die situation
it's just whether you get your honours
whether you get a 1st, 2nd upper, 2nd lower, 3rd class or merit
and i've minimum 3 more semesters to play around with
before i decide honours or non-honours track =/
tsk tsk.
i really need some self-discipline
seriously freaking worried for today's paper
not that i'm not worried for others
(such as: political science - totally dead for it)
but because it's ec2303 T_T
and i still think i screwed it up
probably even more screwed up than the midterms
T____T
and midterms weren't exactly fantabulous AT ALL
=(
was in sian-ed mode the entire day after the paper
*has no motivation to study*
but okay. i hope the momentum is picking up
hopefully after dinner i'd be hyped up enough to start on something
hmm. =/
PSLE results were out yesterday, or the day before, or something along those lines
and since my brother's gonna take his psle next year
my parents are getting all anxious and whatever
(just like they did during my time 0-o)
so they started psycho-ing him
telling him that he'll be going for ri's general ability test or something
and.
they want me to psycho him as well
with the whole raffles-family-schools-are-reputable issue
oh man.
spare me.
and
it just dawned on me just a few days ago
or rather, nights.
that eli reminds me of someone..............
this is so bad.
i shouldnt even associate him with eli *goodness*
and onew reminds me of someone else as well........
the face, the character....
are all 89-er december babies like that?
leejinki please dont do this to me..
sayonara~ sotsugyou-wa ashita no tame-ni sounds so much like a love song
0_o
and bangkok korea trips confirmed!
i'm happy. =)
but japan trip cancelled =(
oh well.
i'll just wait till next december or something
since i really wanna go for exchange to KU during summer
for ONCE, momo's pasting me stuff from kr 0_o
well, the power of double/triple S.
hyunjoong's pretty.... i wonder how will the korean version of hanadan turn out to be
at least he's taking on rui's role........
and domyouji's actor looks abit............ ojisan-ish. =x
went to study with dor yesterday
and starbucks people are nice. they actually bother asking you how you are..
seemed quite effective.... studying with a friend that is.
and she's like "OEI. study."
hahaha
somehow momo's laughing like crazy over what i said..
"domyouji changmin. bao zha tou scolding people"
very funny.....?
i really cant wait for exams to be over
i've a hundred and one things i want to do......
mainly hardcore revision and brushing up of korean to be on par with jap
before i can start studying both simultaneously and take topik/jlpt next year
must make sure i've at least topik 3 standard before i try for exchange...
hmm.
and my brother gave me our clique ring
apparently he took it while my mum wasn't noticing
hahaha what a smart brother i have XD
and i didnt even tell him i was looking for it
he said he just knew it LOL
damn cute
i just realised results are out on the night i leave for korea
hopefully it doesnt dampen my mood
and enjoy myself at apgujeong/everland/lotteworld!
junie told me to bring her to SME.....................
the last time i set foot into seoul was like, 2 years ago
shall remind ying to check out the address
since she's our map of seoul
LOL
hmm.
ying wants to go to jeju..........but it's already snowing right now in seoul
which means by the time we get there
it'd be freezing in seoul
let along jeju..... *brrr*
shall see how. and not much time to play around with too =(
junie's hoping there'll be shinee-related stuff...
well. since i'm just on holiday, seeing key is a bonus. XD
yay! dinner's ready!
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