dont stop, move a little closer; 

February 13 [Tue], 2007, 0:55


( taken from sgsecrets )

isnt this really sweet? (:
reminds me of hana kimi,
when ella sleeps on wuzun's shoulder

tennis-ed again today!
although we were all feeling pretty lazy haha.
but tennis-ing once a week is good :D
we met mrs tay & she said she likes hanabi's food! :D
& the cutest thing was that
she said she'll bring her friends there soon,
& wants us to sms her the number x)
i miss her!!

& of all random ppl,
i miss corny(lius) & boon! ):
i still rmb corny was so happy
when we gave yakult to him!

alan that pig!!
nobody bullies MY ah yee okay >:(
grrrrrrrrr.

...i dont know why but
somehow his backview looks really reassuring,
like he will protect me from anything.
& sometimes i feel so tired that
i just want to fall asleep on his back
& forget the world for a little while.

but anyway just now was quite T___T
( will tell audssss & chrissssss sssssoon )
& i swear my heart skipped a beat
but to quote the bestfriend,
"it's just a moment of weakness."
yup i think that's true so i will stay calm (:

anw. how can i pass him the cookie
without him knowing it's me?!

i need another book to read!
-looks hopefully at karen- x)
i just ate 5 pineapple tarts zomg ):
im craving for seoul garden how ah chris!!
& dju dju's so ex but the mutton's so damn good

i dont mean to avoid/disappear but the truth is,
i dont know what does it mean to be "good friends"
'cause ive always been one.
i want to care, ( & i still do )
but im afraid of falling back in.

how now brown cow. =|

like me trying my hardest to explain; 

February 12 [Mon], 2007, 1:25


And all I wanted was a bench to rest my weary legs
My silent heart agrees I have done my best


had a mini panic attack today after the NTU talk,
what with all the talk on admission criteria etc.
thoughts going wild in my head;
what if?

i really, really want to get into that course.
but guess my back-up option(s) aint too bad either,
though it's a longer route.
still, i will continue to pray & hope for the best.

thank God for parents.
from pri sch to anderson to nyjc,
they've always been there for me.
they're really the ones who keep me sane,
esp. when im at a loss as to what i shld do.

on a lighter note,
havent been specifically shopping for CNY this year
& i bought alot of black clothes for some strange reason.
so im trying to inject more colours into my life now haha
( I LOVE PRINTS <3 )
& oh i finally got my black skinnies altered,
love them love them love them!

bumped into alot of people today,
& im so glad i saw PEH-STIR! :D
you're missed my 73 buddy

went to visit peirong & xinling at work,
their uniforms are so cute haha :D
& yes yes peirong's him passed my test!
although.. it's really karma for the both of us hahaha

die man.
now that my hair is coloured,
my vanity has gone up one level
been researching on all sorts of hair products,
plus ive been doing alot of online shopping again T_T
i can kiss my money goodbye
although i must admit it's fun to pamper yourself! :D

think im getting more & more lor sor everyday,
so im going to end here but before i do
im happy to see my parents so happy with what i bought them
( mens' wallets are really damn expensive T_T )
&& i must really sleep earlier now
'cause lack of sleep = weight gain! ( scientifically proven )

okay good night world!


i see so much magic, though i missed it at that time; 

February 11 [Sun], 2007, 0:27

gave my bro a treat at the restaurant just now
it was fun seeing everyone :D
( & my velly velly aTtituDezx buddy chris hahaha )
although there is a misunderstanding i must clear up T___T
& it's a pity he wasnt working today,
wanted to show my bro who he was x)

bro suddenly asked me,
"so what happened?
you never really told me what happened."
& i realised it has already been 3 weeks.
has it really been that long?

but come to think of it,
life's been pretty good.
ive more time for family & friends now
& less things to worry about.
yes i still get emo now & then
& i miss you all the time,
but i guess im okay

&&& ive ah yee (yit?) who makes me smile stupidly to myself,
& whose cute smile brightens up my day
honestly no feelings attached at the moment,
& no plans to jump into sth again.
but i really do enjoy talking to him as a friend,
& having him around cheers me up (:
so all's good, all's good

LOL peirong & i are not only best friends,
we've the same "good taste" in guys too xD
to think i didnt dare to tell her where's he from at first x)
going to visit her tmr,
take a peek & give my verdict :D

anw. vee-day's coming up soon!
haha all the flowers & dates & secret admirers,
im a sucker for all romantic things
but the truth is,
i've never really believed in valentine's day,
'cause we shld celebrate love everyday (:

anyway i was thinking about baking him
a giant heart-shaped cookie just for fun :D
& leave an anonymous note!
think he'll be wondering who it is all day haha! x)

....kinda sad that
i never had the chance to give you anything for valentine's.
not last year, not this year too
& probably never.

i wish i knew how i can help,
& the best thing to say right now.
'cause just worrying ain't going to make things better.

"Aren't my life & my feelings the same thing?" 

February 10 [Sat], 2007, 1:41



"Hello," I said, brushing myself off, "Hello," she said.
"This is so funny." "Yes." How could it be explained?
"Where are you going?" I asked.
"Just for a walk," she said, "and you?"
"Just for a walk."

We helped each other up, she brushed leaves from my hair, I wanted to touch her hair.
"That's not true," I said, not knowing what the next words out of my mouth would be, but wanting them to be mine, wanting, more than I'd ever wanted anything, to express the center of me and be understood.

"I was walking to see you." I told her.
"I've come to your house each of the last six days. For some reason I needed to see you again."
She was silent, I had made a fool out of myself, there's nothing wrong with not understanding yourself and she started laughing, laughing harder than I'd ever felt anyone laugh.
The laughter brought on tears, and the tears brought on more tears, and then I started laughing, out of the most deep and complete shame.

"I was walking to you," I said again, "because I wanted to see you again," she laughed and laughed.

"That explains it," she said when she was able to speak.
"It?"
"That explains why, each of the last six days, you weren't at your house."


-excerpt from Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close




we might as well be strangers in another town; 

February 09 [Fri], 2007, 2:36

ASHJGFAKFJSHJHGDS
DJKSHJHFGSAJKF
I LOVE MY HAIR <3
to bits&pieces & to the moon & back!
my hairdresser's a really nice guy.
very meticulous & very careful with my hair
& off-topic but he dresses well! (:
guess i'll be going back often

i was THIS close to snipping my hair short.
aiyahhhh very impatient to leave it longer.
but... guess ive to control the itch to cut it

he did sth sweet today (:
( sorry buddies im too paiseh to say what >_< )
it was just a tiny gesture,
but it made my day anyway

it also made me realise that
everything was one-sided all along.

ANYWAY.
there was this super super cute kid,
who just couldnt stop smiling/laughing!
omgosh <3 <3
i wish i could have kidnapped him!
he totally charmed the entire restaurant haha :D
& his goodbye = blowing kisses
man, he's going to grow up breaking hearts!

mum & i have freaky telepathy!
last week i was craving for japanese curry after work.
when i got home that night,
it turns out that she bought one packet of it to cook for me!
which is damn random 'cause we've never tried it before
& ytd i was telling auds i wanna eat wasabi peas.
& when i got home,
I FOUND A BOTTLE OF IT T_____T
is this freaky or is this freaky?

i........
okay never mind.

reminiscence I. 

October 01 [Sun], 2006, 0:00
CAUTION:
DO NOT PROCEED IF YOU DO NOT WANT SORE EYES.

ahaha omgosh i dug up alot of old pictures!
i realised it's really been ages since i had long hair.
& i think my face changed quite abit over the years.
the pictures are really embarrassing,
but heck lah x)

( photos are resized, thus the poor quality )




huimin & i (:
this was taken during early sec 3 i think,
when i first had short hair.
i look weirdly young here T__T




I LOVE THIS PICTURE OF US
that was when i first had my chao ah lian hair.
zakiah kept calling me "golden monkey" all day haha :D
if you have the original photo, pls send it to me!




my "best friend" (:
rofl it all started on one fine day during sec 4
when i bought him the New Paper hahaha.
...it's funny how much people can change eh.
i really miss the crazy days.




i just had to post this 'cause it's JAY!
like the cuuuuutest junior ever :D
i cant believe he's actually sec 4 now T__T
anw. wth we look like siblings here hahaha.




( karen wth were you doing to me?!! )
part of 4/3 at lita's farewell.
the bestest best class ever
spent the best 2 years of my life with these ppl (:
we had to be the most rebellious bunch ard,
from locking mrs goh out of the classroom
to showing the finger to ms zaleha.
all the teachers were exasperated with us hahaha.
we were really problem kids eh.
but it didnt matter at all,
'cause we were happy tgt as a class;
as friends.
man. i really miss you guys.


alright have to head out now,
will post up more some other time! (:

if i wake up & you're still here with me; 

February 07 [Wed], 2007, 1:29
HELLO! :D
today started out bad,
'cause i slept at 5am & woke up at 9am
lack of sleep = grrrr beware!
BUT.
i was damn cheered by the kitchen staff hahaha.



their silly drawings on my order sheets x)

&&& of course, was v happy to see (who else)
zee cute kitchen boy :D
who is 1.74m tall but only 50kg?!
weird 'cause he's workg in the kitchen -_-
"can you do me a favour pls?" -grins
AWWWWWW MANNNN. -vk melts into a giant puddle <3
was a lil' disorientated after that hurhur.

& the day ended happy too,
with everyone eating super dee-lee-cious cake tgt :D
( happy birthday jasmine! )
haha it was a damn cosy feeling (:

ANYWAY TMR WE'RE GOING TO....
*drumrolls*
PLAY TENNIS!!!
yay yay yay yay yay! :D
& zomg ice cold tau huey after that! <3
& soupy place & tom yam!
may tmr come faster!

GOT MY PAY!
have so many things to buy,
splurging on my family this time round.
got pa a wallet, still finding a handbag for mummy
& treating bro to dinner at the restaurant (:
wheeeee it's good to have money indeed :D

ohhh thursday is gonna be exciting too 'cause...
im gonna go highlight/dye my hair! (:
have not decided on the colour yet,
but definitely not brown agn.
heh super excited!
but if i turn out looking like an ah lianxzxz,
PLEASE DONT LAUGH AT ME OKAY.
PROMISE AH.

Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close
is an extremely & incredibly good book (:
i really love the style of writing,
& it makes me think. alot.
"I hope you never love anything as much as I love you."

thanks to karen for introducing it to me!
hahaha i got my very own private librarian x)
anw. you're missed super badly!
i will read faster so i can meet up with you sooner!

ive like 1kg of fats in my cheeks ): ):
&*^&*%%$@@@
of all places to gain weight -.-

alrights will blog abt the weekend soon,
when i get the pictures (:
but for now im off to bed!
1.19am, probably the earliest time ive slept in days!
( chris you better not be reading this or else.... )



i just can't seem to leave you behind.

short & sweeeet. 

February 06 [Tue], 2007, 3:30
hello this is just a short note to myself
so i wont forget what i want to blog!
-weekend was a blast with a capital B-E-E
- wednesday & thursday i cannot wait!!!
- extremely loud & incredibly close
- PAYDAY *kaching!

okay done
&& guess who waved goodbye to me just now!
^________^

'cause nothing i have is truly mine; 

February 03 [Sat], 2007, 1:59



After all this time
I never thought we'd be here, never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it, couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go.


met dexter today! :D
at the foodcourt behind our restaurant lol.
it was good/heartwarming to see him agn;
him in his NY pants with the smiley face (:
v glad to see him doing well & working hard



sweet.

pineapple tarts are my weakness now ):
why on earth are they so yummy?!!

i feel... split.
part of me wants to move on so badly,
& yet the other part of me wants to stay put,
which is totally meaningless & pointless.
i mean what for, right?
but still.....
aiyah dunno la i feel incredibly stupid.

& i just wish the slightest things
will stop triggering all those memories.
just watching that part abt xiu yi & jun li
made me ache again,
not to mention stupid questions in my head agn.
tmd >:(

rawrrrrrr.
damn frustrated with myself



shuffle in colours! :D
think my bro wants to cry hahaha.
thinkg of getting the orange one!
( surprise surprise x) )
& the green one makes me miss mr greenie! ):




was i just......
a second choice?

work! (: 

February 02 [Fri], 2007, 0:32
suddenly feel very attached to my colleagues.

ivy our dearest "ah ma",
xueling & her funny comments
liu ning who's always complaining she's too fat,
jasmine, the perverted one rofl
william who is really not funny,
nick the most annoying 16 year old i know,
qi xuan the blur-looking kid,
CHRIS & AUDS :D :D
xiaoshun & his stupid pose!!
ah yee, my eyecandy :P
robert & his umbrella
lao da who really looks like a lao da,
big & small andy!
ah hui the ah beng & his wasabi leaf

i really dont know if i shld leave.
they're now such a big part of my life
that i really cant bear to do that.

ANYWAY.
today im damn happy 'cause...
i didnt have to secretly peek into the kitchen x)
& we talked alot too hohoho :D

perverted/desperate/irritating customers
deserved to be smothered in wasabi!
*(&*&%%##@!#$

okay bye!
( chris pls sleep early hor!!! )