Partial death of myself

April 26 [Thu], 2012, 20:10
Lately I feel like an empty shell of a human being. The goals and purposes that I once I had are foreign to me... I'm not even sure if what I want is reallywhat I want.

You laugh and live normally, completely oblivious of my real feelings. Oblivious of my insecurity and tainted thoughts....which have not taken action, yet still make me feel sick when I think of them. Is this who I am?

This is an endless cycle that keeps repeating.

Why can't I break it?

These negative and sad thoughts, should not even be happening because I have what I wanted..

Slowly, I'm throwing it away...


September 02 [Thu], 2010, 1:59
I work now and am officially too busy to blog or hang out.

Shocking, huh?


I'm happy, but...

July 23 [Fri], 2010, 3:07
Until I feel like dying and cry until my tears run dry, I can still walk away.

Even though I'll be sad for a while... I know I'll live.

Being too emotionally attached is the greatest form of weakness...

5 random facts about me lately:

1) I'm obsessed with My Beauty Diary masks.
2) After EV training an Alakazam in Pokemon, I became bored and gave up (for now).
3) I lack concentration/have a short attention span.
4) I cry when I'm angry/frustrated (which is a lot lately due to increased stress).
5) I sleep for hours and still feel tired.

Oh, I like this song also:

Enka is so calming.


July 18 [Sun], 2010, 23:43

Broken Toy

July 09 [Fri], 2010, 0:35
Heat Wave

It's so hot

I'm getting better now... less selfish I think.

The me from before, I want to be a carefully re-edited version of her.

I'm still always very bored of myself. My appearance...

Change after the time of unhappiness, change after finals exams, change before my new class....
which appearance am I the most happy with?

I can't tell because it's always after the change that I begin to miss myself from before...

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ムード: drained
天気: night time
食物: water
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