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July 05 [Thu], 2012, 3:38
I have grown!

It's a little bit funny to read my old posts. I was so young and stupid. Everything I complained about were all shallow rubbish. But well, what can you do about it now.

I just re-set my password and realized that I can log in here! I stopped updating because I lost my password, and never thought about the fact that I can reset it.

It's okaaaay.


It's kind of weird updating here again... I have an ameblo like the rest of the world, but Idunno, maybe I should keep this one and start writing in English again? ^^

But really, state_genocide? What kind of URL is that hahah. I think I just wanted something with genocide after that song by DEATHGAZE. I have been obsessed with DEATHGAZE for so many years! I can't believe it.
I love them more than anything!

Ž€R(*LÍM*)ƒm 

July 07 [Tue], 2009, 7:23

Am I the only one who feels such self-hatred, both looks and personality-wise?

So bad that I wish for my life to end. I hate living. It is such a curse.

I feel contemplative, all these degenerate thoughts of mine. Such stupid material nonsense, are they not?

Mon dieu, I do not wish to go back there. I fear it. I hate it.


And while on the topic of I hatred, I thought I would mention you too.

I despise you. Yet I somehow admire you. But I guess I am not alone of thinking of you in such a high way, after hearing the conversation between two utterly childish girls, who made it quite clear what the only thing they think of is.

Oh mon cher, must it be so hard to forget? My world is falling apart.


And the red haired girl. She is beauty herself in my eyes. I just want to hold her close and kiss her when I see her. It's not as strong as it is for this guy above I'm afraid, but I guess it's because he's easier to find things about.


Who the fuck cares anyway?

We will all die anyways.

Don't break the heart that loves youR(*LÍM*)ƒm 

June 30 [Tue], 2009, 6:43

Love becomes a ghost.

Angel teeth are underneath her lips and kisses
She won't turn 30
Or ever hear our birthday wishes

And I dare you to tell her
Won't you tell she was wrong?
And I dare you to wake-up
And pretend she isn't gone

Now that girl in the mirror
She's the one I miss the most
And she appears so much clearer
Tonight love becomes a ghost

To that girl in the mirror
Won't you raise your glass and toast?
To the end of an era
Tonight love becomes a ghost

Angel tears and all your years were quite conceited
When the light goes out inside your eyes are you defeated?
Don't you dare ever tell me
Don't you tell me I was wrong
Id rather keep sleeping
I'll pretend she isn't gone

Now that girl in the mirror
She's the one I miss the most
And she appears so much clearer
Tonight love becomes a ghost

To that girl in the mirror
Won't you raise your glass and toast?
To the end of and era
Tonight love becomes a ghost

And that girl in the mirror
She's the one that I hate the most
And I'm beginning to fear her
Now that love's become a ghost

As I age in the mirror
She reminds me that I'm close
She appears so much clearer
Tonight love becomes a ghost

She's not dead she's sleeping
Sleeping


/ SAN

Msn stuff(EƒÖE)/ 

June 24 [Wed], 2009, 3:11
Everyone makes mistakes, your were mine. One's love is another one's lost.

Fivethousand people scream when I fall down.

Hmm... I'm feeling depressed again. More medicine plz.

Not a pill in the whole world can save me from this misery called myself

Life is a slow suicide and it's ending one minute at a time...

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June 23 [Tue], 2009, 1:22

Since my hair got kind of gray-ish on the top I just made it black now(*Lä‡`)

I was thinking of writing some more but the food is done already!

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ô(*^ E^)ƒmÜ™ 

June 18 [Thu], 2009, 5:39
My mom was just coloring her hair again and I helped her.

But it was some color left so I just combed it out in my hair, so now half of it got black(EÍE)!!

ƒfƒ‚ƒjƒAR(*LÍM*)ƒm 

June 18 [Thu], 2009, 5:34

Today my first real thing from the awesome Demonia shoe brand came!(MEƒÖEL)

It was my 9cm high platform shoes, but I haven't got a picture of them just yet xD

Eat you aliveR(*LÍM*)ƒm 

June 17 [Wed], 2009, 7:56

The song JENNIFER by EAT YOU ALIVE actually makes me feel slightly happy just for the moment(MEƒÖEL)

Stalker modeR(*LÍM*)ƒm 

June 17 [Wed], 2009, 7:47







Don't look, I sweeear

NoR(*LÍM*)ƒm 

June 17 [Wed], 2009, 7:41
You guys, stop making Ameblo's instead of Yaplog.

Ameblo sucks, it loads slow and is generally uglier.

*RAGE*
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