read if u may... i'll view dem as care and concern. ^^
Coward Cakee - credits to Cindy!
heres a link to a youtube video featuring Cakee, frm AuditionSEA. someone whom i had a bad impression of. XP
its obviously due to *someone*, but it doesnt matter now. =) [edit. now i have a VERY bad impression of her. -_- coz shes a person hu dont mean wad she say...]
e video is wonderfully short. only 13secs long. wont take up much of ur time. pls go view it and let her be famous for her cowardly-ness~~ ^^
lols... 3 days no go sch already. haha all coz i cannt wakeup. X_X wooot. i think next week i oso no need go le bah. wahaha~
hmmz. played alil audition here n dere, den went to play gunz. after gunz, went back play audition. fun-filled everyday! (and of course shopping too. lols~)
anyway i went chekliang's hse again, twice. 1st time was to help him dl gunz, and failed. O_O den 2nd time went dere wif e installation program. and now, even after successfully installing it. STILL CANT PLAY. LOL! its e same problem as last time we went to peninsular dat 24hr lan shop. seen every1 as "Agent not available". totally no1 to battle wif, and derefore cant play at all. -_- works fine at my hse leh.
lols. den abt audition... yay lvled! (dats like... finally huh.) LOL! failed license once coz shortage of 4perfs. -_- 2nd time my perfs jus nice made it. so yep im lvl 15 now, i mor lvl and im clubber le. O_O lag behind every1 for so long le. lols.
finally found shuya in audition and added him. ^^ though he seemed alil colder le. anyway is oso coz now got v little contact le. T-T
besides shuya oso added leost, firewinx etc. (or maybe no etc. ^^)
wha! i muz be in e mood of posting today. =p woot. i saw something i shudden see at cindy's blog. O_O jealous? me?
maybe. anyway dats not e main pt here.
i realised dat i have seriously no confidence in myself, low self-esteem, etc etc. i really dislike being like this!! so maybe its time now for a change. i want to be proud of myself too!
1st step i shud take shall be on my external appearance! many times i think im soooo very ugly, especially in front of other ppl. coz dats wad how i think dey see me. but when im alone in e toilet in front of e mirror, i still think i look ok wad.
but im not so zi lian to think dat im shuai or wadevr la!
y issit dat i only feel this confidence when im alone? y do i always feel inferior when im wif other ppl. many times i really envy those "BHB" ppl can! i want to proudly put my picture as my display pic, no matter how ugly it is! i seriously need this courage... and i really hate being camera-shy! T-T wo shou gou le!
so starting now, i want to make dis 1st step to change myself. i will try my best
to be bhb to give off dat air of confidence i nv once possessed. yay! so maybe 1 day u will see me put my own photos in dis blog, as my display pic in msn etc. puke all u wan, for all i care. =D dat shall be indication of my success. and then i shall move on to my next step.
these changes hopefully will fit me in a poly environment better... =/ oh and btw, ive been getting gd interpretations frm daily tarot readings lately. sure hope it marks e start of my gd fortune! XD
whahaha. 3rd gen blog skin now!! ^^ all e blog skins i used were all autumn-style de. dunno y i jus hav a preference for dem. 1st was e mid-autumn rabbit-ish skin, 2nd was maple leaves and dragonflies wif a cloudy, soft/ watercoloured feel to it. now dis is e 3rd skin! (i think will be e last of e autumn skins, since autumn is ending soon...)
and to suit e skin, ive changed e cbox colours too. maybe i shud take a screenshot of how my blog looks like each time i change a skin. ive already wad colours i used for my previous 2 cbox styles! =x
mood: worried =/
lols... orange has been acting rather different these few days. like very lidat... e life revolving her seems so blue.
which shudden be e case since orange colour is directly opposite blue in e colour spectrum. [hey i learnt how to use e strikeoff stuff! grats to myself. XP]
- is her sch workload too heavy? (she studies alil too much these days. =p)
- is her class ppl too mean to her?
- is it coz of wx's absence on msn? (dun kou shi xin fei anymore.)
- or is it coz orange simply jus thinks too much over small things, stressing herself up.
in any case, hope orange feels better. rmb speaking out helps alot. haizz... worried for orange. T-T
wahaha. baked cookies.
paid shipping charges.
continue next time.
yep yep watched death note movie... (well half of it.) and after all e bad luck comes gd luck!! (coz we r at e 24hr lan shop. i always do better in lan shops. XP)