I'll write it again in English.It's not all the same,though.
It's been one week from the last live,so I'll write what I felt.
4and1/2years was a long time .Too much memories.I couldn't say anything during the MC,but I had lot's of things that I wanted to say.
After the live,we had a party with my mens.We talked lot's of old stuff,good things and bad things that we experienced.
When were going home,Kouta was staring at me like a child.I won't forget that sad eyes forever.We've been together for 9years!
I met Atsu after a few days,and he was OK.I don't know about Setsu,but I'm sure he's OK too.
I was thinking too many things this week.My band was my life,so the disband was like my life has been gone.Some fans told me,"What will be our hope from tommorow?"I felt really sad about that.The reason I started the band was my dream to make people happier,but I made people sad for it.I didn't know what to do anymore.
But the time won't stop.A new day came,and the next and the next.
I hated to stop,but the things seemed stoped only around me.
I heard a song of one of my favorite singer,Utaka Ozaki.
He had a very special life until he was 26,and he was gone.Although,he left plenty songs and plenty spirits to the world.
Life would not continue forever,so I can't just stop here and wait for nothing.
The only thing I have is the passion for music.I want to make more&more great music,and learn more about it.I still want to make people happier with my music,and that will be forever.
So I'll start to walk again.Or run.Don't have many time!
I hope that"Since1889"made some GOOD diffrence to all the people who exists.
Thanks for all,see you in the next chapter.