i went back to the office this afternoon to tidy up my desk...then it goes empty. i sat there and put on make up as usual. i wasnt alone but then i found tat without ray, karen and the others...shkp mean nothing much to me.
then...i came to the conclusion: i didnt really work for money for the past 2 and a half years...but for the ppl i met there. they became a part of me and my life. i have been so used to the life with them around...talking and laughing, sharing ups and downs...oh well maybe they dun really agree with me, haha...
i keep telling myself for the various reasons tat i should leave the company but i can never find a reason for leaving u guys...
honestly, i just really love u all.
back from a lovely holiday in hokkaido, lovely n cold~ ha...spending holiday in another country is great, it gives ppl time to forget abt everything, like living in another world. no one knows u, no one care abt wat u do for living, no one really care abt u. come on, we just come here to relax n have fun!!!!!!!!!!
then come back to reality, back to work, sales is up...i've been reading a few ppl's blogs today and 3 of them mentioned " i am going to make a big decision of mine" probably it is becos of the new year, u think so? most ppl think it is time for changes.
n yeah, "am going to make a big decision too!"
'll see!
seems tat i've been stick to a few ppl's blog lately, their words and their life. i dun know most of them in fact (is tat some kind of mental illness?), maybe ppl's friend's friend and mostly gurls. i admire their beauty n their specialities. it is something like role model, i wanna live like them...but it is so not my kind of life!?
anniversary celebration @peninsular
thx u
i contradict myself alot.
like i always think tat i have done nothing for my life, when i say nothing, its probably mean 'nothing constructive'. but then i never get enough time for sleep. i always want 48 hours a day.
and then it comes to that i always want to earn much more money and get a more challenging job. sadly tho i am still stuck here in the office instead of quitting.
i think of marriage alot, but in fact it scared me to death.
i love my 'boy/man??', but i cant think of any other reason for being together except for the purely 'love'...
and many more...
i know it is ridiculous! --"
my warmth congratulation to:
Joyce&Edmond
Natalie&Matthew
and yes, nao will be the next!
yay! am going to hokkaido next week!
its been oct, n i am still not there and make the right decision...this is the weakness of 'libra', and i know if i keep on like this, i cannot achieve anything for my life.
i so much wanna leave or actually it is 'i should' rather than 'i want'. seems tat if i disappear in ur life, things will start to run smoothly.
it is not my turn this time, so close but not yet. will there be another chance in my life?
很想很想很想很想很想很想很想很想很想很想很想很想很想很想很想很想...離開一下
至少在生日的時候ba
i am lacking motivation...
i miss those days, i knew it, when i was having english breadfast at the cafe this morning.
then i keep telling myself, it is different here, this is the different stage...ppl doing different thing at different stage.
i destroyed everything...including my feeling for you.
what should i do?
just...leave me alone.
i like the book after reading it. something nice and simple.
after these almost two years time, me, still being the same...but y?
i am longing for something new, brand new!!!!!!!!!!
...move move move
st. g honey dinner, it was such a cozy night again...
do you actually believe in fate?
to me, it is 50/50...
god faith? or u take control on everything?
i wish, haha... i could be a little bit more 'special'...(in a good way tho)
hmmm...
p.s.
am so happy for you nao
and also congrat. to my 'husband' edm
can almost feel the happiness and sweetness
everywhere...
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