thoughts
January 05 [Tue], 2010, 22:25
Not pausing to think of certain repercussions when I actually do things is really a bad habit of mine. Because when I actually lie down on my bed at night with absolutely nothing to do, I start to think of past actions and stuff like that.
Like now >_<
I also make it a point to not regret what I've done. What's the point of regretting? I can't turn back time and redo what has been done. So regret = no good for sanity.
But I can't actually help it if I do start to get upset. Sigh, like for instance.. Ramadhan 09. Totally wasted. No terawih to speak of, and many other upsetting things. Reason: work. I even was working on the second day of raya. Ramadhan 08 was a waste too. Reason: MP AND work. I'm thankful that at least I was strong enough not to forgo any days, esp during 08 while working for F1. woo... that time was definitely a challenge. <打消線>Gah but still, such sin-filled years. Ashamed of it, I am.
Other than the sacred fasting month, kinda regretting knowing certain people in my life. I'd definitely be better and slightly well-off (and maybe even a bit richer) if I didnt know these irritants.
Fuck oh well. All what I went through enabled to learn something of life. For that, I can at least have an iota of gratefulness. LOL.
Now I must put my best foot forward and do my best this time. And try to think before i leap. *prays*
Amin.
Like now >_<
I also make it a point to not regret what I've done. What's the point of regretting? I can't turn back time and redo what has been done. So regret = no good for sanity.
But I can't actually help it if I do start to get upset. Sigh, like for instance.. Ramadhan 09. Totally wasted. No terawih to speak of, and many other upsetting things. Reason: work. I even was working on the second day of raya. Ramadhan 08 was a waste too. Reason: MP AND work. I'm thankful that at least I was strong enough not to forgo any days, esp during 08 while working for F1. woo... that time was definitely a challenge. <打消線>Gah but still, such sin-filled years. Ashamed of it, I am.
Other than the sacred fasting month, kinda regretting knowing certain people in my life. I'd definitely be better and slightly well-off (and maybe even a bit richer) if I didnt know these irritants.
Fuck oh well. All what I went through enabled to learn something of life. For that, I can at least have an iota of gratefulness. LOL.
Now I must put my best foot forward and do my best this time. And try to think before i leap. *prays*
Amin.
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