「定めの死ね」 - 歴

Something interesting...apparently 嵐の皆 A type blood, except for 雅紀くん, who is AB~★

ヽ（≧∀≦）ゝ

There are also rumours around that 翔くん is dating a 30 year old high-flying CEO. All I hope is that Johnny's does not get to sink his teeth into this, if she is 本当には 翔くんが好きの女！

I was really touched by 眼鏡の男 - ニノ~ It all started when I drew portraits of all of them, but I drew his with spectacles on. He wore the somewhat alike black frame spectacles during their 夏の「Time」のコンサート。 I was so touched. Really. Almost to the point of crying...Thousand of fanmails reach 嵐、but for him to do this is almost like a silent acknowledgment that he has read those fanmails.

(/O_Q)/

But maybe I am being le creme de la creme of the deluded fanboys.

僕とって一番大切ワンは嵐です

(笑)

Prelims are almost over and that certainly spells a time of relief. I did not study at all but I manage to survive it. I guess it was because there were little voices in my head telling me to 「がんばっるさ！」~★

最高！

Will be getting a tongue stud, navel piercing (again) and a nape piercing soon. I'm quite excited, really.

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I was watching 「Hey Hey Hey! Telephone Box です」, where 嵐 were giving their reflections on their Time concert.

The way they were talking about it really made me feel like being there! When 松潤 screwed up some of the lyrics of the song、まちゃんのパンツ getting pulled down by ニノくん to reveal the tight leggings (!)、 大野くんの舞歩、 翔くん falling off the 舞台~ ★

僕のテンシオンさ。。。本当に高朝や！ゝ（≧▽≦）ゝ

It makes me excited.

でも、男は 嵐の皆さんが 好きですね、本当に大丈夫じゃない

（´―◇―｀）

I'm currently watching the 大坂のドムのコンサート~ 嵐の皆さんのMC Talk ですね~ It makes me all ニャッニャッ whenever they start talking.

まちゃんと翔ちゃん bathing together. Naked. My fanboyish thoughts go into overdrive （☆∀☆）

It is also amusing to know that まちゃん must have からげ (chicken) every morning for breakfast and that ニノくん will have チェエスバガ (cheese burger) for 弁当 every night when they eat together as 嵐~

(笑)

翔ちゃん、まちゃん、ニノくん、大野ちゃんと松潤 - 皆さんさ、絶対に最高だよ！

His tension is unbelievably high and he is sometimes, really a 相葉か (あい 馬鹿) ね？！ Saying that you cannot leave leftovers for karage because you must feel like the bird. (笑) And the rest of them don't let him talk!

松潤 is being mean to まちゃん！ （´≧◇≦｀）

リイ―ダは。。。馬鹿ですね。 とまちゃん （＝△＝）

ニノくんと野くんは らめん 行ますね~ 何 まちゃん、 翔くんと松潤 も 行ますですか？！ 大宮SK~ ★ How sly of the other three, to go with リイ―ダとニノ when they were together.

(笑)

まちゃん eats a lot. Which is good in a way because he is so skinny~
ニノくん is a cheapskate and まちゃん is very generous - but it is funny how the others say it feels as though he is "superior".

松潤 uses his card to foot the bill but he splits the bill when eating with リイ―ダ~★ 翔くん gets pissed over food (笑) It is 本当に 可愛いじゃない？！

I also realised how different they call each other. While everybody else calls 大野 「リイ―ダ」、翔くん calls him 「智くん」。 Despite 翔くん being older than まちゃん、 he calls him「翔ちゃん」! And 翔くん calls him 相葉くん~ In Hey Hey Hey!, 大野くん called him「相葉さん」!

翔くん gets angry easily! And the rest of them are having a bomb teasing him and he gets pissed (and denying it)~ ★ It is really funny.

最高の友達な~ （＊∀＊）／

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I almost cried after reading Mi-chan's fic on how a girl gave up on her suicide attempt after listening to 嵐の「感謝カンゲキ雨嵐」, and watching the news report that 翔くん did on News Zero where he asked the rest of 嵐 to speak up on the subject of いじめ (bullying).

It was so sad.

It just shows how much these Stormy Boys really care for their fans, and it made me very touched. Even as 潤くんと二宮くん talked about their own experiences, it was just really...heartwarming.

I will totally lay my life down for you guys.

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Ah~ I have not listened to 彩冷える for a long time, ne~ 桜舞う季節に seems to be a very good listen. They have new singles as well, 『Day Dream』,『エクストリーム・マシーン』 ,『Cubic「L/R」ock』（A/BType）! Maybe I should buy it - but it costs ￥1890 without shipping.

（´゜○゜｀）

And I just spend SGD130 on 嵐の電影、「黄色い涙」~

僕は 貧簿人だよ~ （败）

All of them have a new look too! 本当に カコイイ！！ ★ 葵くん、夢人ちゃん~ 貴方達が 可愛いです~

Not to mention, 嵐の新 PV 「Happiness」 makes me happy as well! ちび翔ちゃんの言うは : ラブラブ！ ＊（≧△≦）＊

自分の今日は 最高~

I have finished DL-ing よい子のみかたのパート二ね~ It feels great (笑) And it is good too~ It is such a heartwarming ドラマ~ 櫻井翔くんの涙 は 僕の笑顔の理由です、 ね？ (笑) It is 超高~★

翔くんは 男の「保母さん」よ~ 心のチャンス！ そうそう、がんばっれます！

（☆◇☆）／

太陽せんせいは 僕の心にが太陽ですね。

The way he is so affectionate makes me feel like a dribbling puddle of fanboyism. （´；＿；｀）

嵐の皆さんは 僕の好きの最高に 「ストームイ」boys ★

お！ 神様 (かみさま)~

I am happy, yes I am. And I will be.

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I looooooved よい子のみかた~

「よい子のみかた」 は 僕は 本当に 好きです ★ Crying Sho-kun makes me melt, totally （＊′≧△≦）／ I can't download it now because Sendspace is giving me problems but the first episode is up on Crunchyroll.

I am totally addicted to きっと大丈夫の PV now as well. It is so colourful as well as perky. It was really cute on how they were viewing themselves on television. Aiba-chan in a hat and Oh-chan blowing kisses at the audience~ as well as them having a casual photoshoot with the 'PV' them dancing. It was such a cute PV and I loved it so much~

（☆△☆）

I shall download it when I have the opportunity. Stop dying on me you bitch of a Sendspace >____> And something tells me that I should not be so vulgar (笑)

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It was Teacher's Day today but I took the opportunity to slack off at home, before meeting up with the other three. It has been three years since the four of us have met, ne?

They haven't changed much, except that 毎 is much more vulgar now (笑)

It has been four years since I've graduated from that school.

I want to get my nape piercing soon~ ★

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今日は 雨が 降っていますね~★

People from another class mocked me today when I stumbled in the rain whilst walking out to the bus-stop, ne. They called me fat. Hm - I wonder if being fat is a crime, ne, but I will try to slim down.

It is not my fault that I am not athletic (笑) I will go swimming tomorrow and start to play basketball...and maybe go back for my Tae Kwon Do lessons. My weight jumped from 42kg to 62kg, ne, that's twenty kilograms in two years (.____.)

僕は 絶対にがんばってます！ （≧∀≦）

I will lose weight~ That will be my goal for the next two years, ne~?

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I was reading sumoboy's livejournal and I really thank her for describing the 嵐のコンサート that she went to, because it really makes me feel excited ★ And I haven't even been to one of their 横浜のコンサート、which is their homeground ne~ Even the way she describes how she saw 嵐 on the 電車 made me excited and having the temptation to squeal whenever she describes them, ne~ (笑)

I really want to go to one of their concerts for once ne! That shall be my goal - next year I will definitely try to go to their concert once, ne!

絶対に！

Now if I only knew how and had my own debit card...I shall apply one next year, ne.

良！！

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I am in love with Nino-kun's solo, Konseki (Song for You) after reading a fanfic online. Sigh I nearly cried it was so characteristic of all of Nino-kun's solos. The lyrics, the melody - there is a strange feeling of being so detached from it all, and his stupid pride that forces him to be unable to be truthful to his feelings.

There are times when we feel like that, don't we?

◇◇◇

消えぬ消えぬ五月雨の痕
乾かぬ涙の痕
消せぬ消せぬ闇夜に浮かぶ
愛しき人の影

夕焼け川原を歩いてる
君と一緒に笑顔つれて
「今日の晩ゴハン何しよう？」
小さなすごく小さな普通の幸福
死んでいった貴方は僕の
心に染みて生きた

他の人を愛しても
他の人でしかありません
幾度となく季節跨いでも
本当は離れては消えるのが怖くて

すみれを見つめこの花綺麗
でもいつかは枯れるのね
時は夕暮れ朱に交わると
影は影を重ねて
一つになるのを恐れて
気づくのが遅しと
水面に一人

あの日埋めた心の種は
二十日すぎ芽吹きました
姿かたち違えど変わらぬ愛
優しい光

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It makes me feel like crying. So much, it does. The feeling of regret, only when it is too late.

A beautiful love.

奇麗にが愛ですか？

And so, continues my obsession with the Stormy Boys~ ★ To the point I think it is safe to say I would die for them (笑)

I want to cosplay Arashi for once! Though I am not as good-looking as them at all, and they are not a J-rock or Visual Kei band so it makes the make-up kind of difficult, ne?

[edit] : Seeing Nino-kun singing Konseki LIVE in the Iza, Now! Concert totally stole my heart away. There is just the way he sings it that makes me melt into a pool of dribbling fanboyism. The expression at the end of the song, where he sings about the violet flowers...the expression. Really. Really. If I ever saw that expression in real life I would lose all rationale and embrace him so damn bad. D:

Fanboyism >___________>

It is full of 気持~ (*A*)

Oh my fucking god. I could melt into his eyes. [/edit]

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Another day, another time to get myself going.

でも、 大丈夫ですか？ 格言と言うが 「意志のある所に這う方法あり」:D 私は DO IT (か？)。。。

僕のお母さんは - 僕は本当に嫌いだ。 汝の欲することを人に施せ！

日本語が、 僕は流暢だない。 でも、 僕にがんばってです！インターネット万歳！★

僕ね、 僕は夢が JC ヘ行きます、 後悔先にたたずからか、はい？

My Japanese is made of fail.

What it really meant was would it be okay? As the proverb goes, when there is a will, there is a way. I can do it (I think).

My mom ne...I do not really like her. Do not do unto others what you don't want others to do to you.

I am very interested in Japanese! Even though I am bad in it...I will work hard! Ganbatte~ Internet is made of win!

I hope I can get into a good JC, because it will be useless regretting later, wouldn't it?

私は 嵐の皆さんが 本当に 大好きです！ ♥

Faith is helping with an order and I am so tempted to get Kiss or Hara, because Luts does not accept Paypal anymore and it really kills. Or maybe I should get a D.I.M Minimee? But I don't have enough money yet, ne, and I still have to get the body...sigh. I think I might want to go with Kiss first...

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さしぶり~

Lately I have been more happy, in a sense, ne. Thinking about life, thinking about all the things that bother me - then I realised. I realised that nobody is going to look after you or take care after you when things get really bad.

And that is why I have to depend on myself, ne?

*〇A〇*

Still, there is this strange, whimsical black humour-like satire amidst all of my life. Something that is just...not there. Something waiting to be fulfilled. Something...which I do not know of.

I feel as though my life is lacking self-control right here now. I do things that seem beyond logical, doing things that does not seem right, doing things that make me regret later.

Sigh~

Anyway Kazuya's neckpiece broke and I felt damn bad about it. I'm getting my corset tomorrow ★ I'm still saving for the Minimee Arashi heads :3

ねね 嵐の皆！ 僕は あなた達 が ずっと ずっと 本当に 大好き だよ！

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Ah, I have not updated in quite a long time, have I?

Recently I have found many new forums which offers DL of Arashi videos, ne. I wonder if this is illegal to DL? I do not think they are copyrighted, and I have not been downloading the copyrighted doramas and so on. What a trouble ne...I am not sure （´ー゜―｀）

僕は 嵐が 絶対 好きだよ！

Recently I have also been able to read more Nihon-go, but I cannot phrase it in sentences anymore (laugh) I think it is due to watching so much of Arashi-related videos, ne?

I am more rational now, ne. Instead of writing obsessive fan mail, I'm taking my time to sketch their portraits and send them. I think it is more heart-felt, ne? And Oh-chan is increasingly hard to draw but he has such pretty eyes /(*o*)/

I have been watching their concerts too~ And I just ordered their Time album and AAA concert DVD. I am very keen on getting きろいいの涙 (It's supposed to be the word Yellow but...it doesn't show on my programme! *roars*)

It has subtitles too~ (squeal)

And I have watched 24 Jikan Terebi and it moved me so much. When the Arashi members were on the verge of crying because of ま-ちゃんのletter (ま-ちゃん、お-ちゃん と 松潤 were already crying) I just teared along with them.

「Hero」is now my favourite song of Arashi because it is so meaningful, ne~★

（≧△≦）

おちゃんが 可愛いでしょ！ < instinctive response from watching Oh-chan's solo concert's imitations!

I want to watch all of their doramas :D But you can't get them here in my country! *roars with a chainsaw*

Ma-chan is allergic to many things ne...that's kind of like me, ne? (laugh)

Oh well, I like discovering new things about Arashi~ and I need to study. O Level English Oral was done and over with, I'm kind of surprised ne. Time passes by so quickly, no?

And I got an A1 for my Chinese O Level. That is something to be happy about, ne...But I don't feel it. Maybe I do not feel as though I have rightfully achieved it (laugh).

I want to learn Japanese and go to Japan ne...

嵐の皆、 本当に ありがとう ございます！

（≧◇≦）

And I was watching the part of the AAA concert when the Arashi members attempt to speak Mandarin, Ma-chan was kind of difficult to understand because of his Japanese accent (like xing fu [lucky] became xing furu). “我们五个人和气(？)将跟努了力，能够见到你们，非常幸福。”

* I am not sure about the front ne...~ Ma-chan's Chinese + Engrish = made of pure win!


Kazu-kun was a tad easier, because his speech was shorter and there were more legible words~ “有这个(？)机会见到大家，请永远支持我们！”

Sho-kun was really good ; I could understand everything. It's no less what you would expect from the Keio boy, ne~~ :3 “岚，成日八年，来台湾开演唱会的愿望，今天 - 终於实现了。” He learnt Mandarin before in school so I was not very surprised~

Oh-chan was not bad as well~ As least I understood them ne! "谢谢你们，一直在等我们来到。 今天，我们从你们那里感到很大的力量。“

I've only heard MatsuJun speaking Mandarin once in HYD2, though I am not sure if it is his voice...but ne...he had the accent not found in Japanese! How should I phrase this - the way he speaks Mandarin is just like any average Singaporean you find on the street. I think this was really understandable as well! “谢谢。谢谢你们。 岚爱你们！最后那一首歌，送给你们。” (He pronounced 'ge' as 'gao' though :/)

MADE OF SO MUCH LOVE. Please excuse me while I fanboy away.

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