ja 2010-12-30T16:18:25+09:00
Everytime I make a mistake,


I can’t stop thinking how stupid I was.



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Sometimes

all i can do is to

LAUGH

to keep myself from

CRYING

so,

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA

as LOUD as possible

even though is fake but better than nothing

anyway

i can just fake my smiles and laughters,

but i have to admit that

i can never fake my tears and feelings.





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]]> 2010-12-28T19:17:48+09:00
we fuck up, we love,

we hurt,

we're teenagers,

and im still learning.


]]> 2010-12-28T18:50:22+09:00 How was ur life changed over the past year?


Since it’s almost the new year,
thought I’d answer this question from the series of questions that await me in the 30 day thing-thangs…

I think the major changes would have to be the meeting and falling apart that takes place in relationships, be it friendships or something a bit more.
It’s rather hard for me to explain in a public setting
(I don’t trust you with my thoughts or feelings)
but maybe in simpler terms…
the falling apart is a deeper cut and stands out more in my memory than the meeting of (certain) people,
and I realized that I don’t love or care about some people as much as I’d like used to.

2010 was definitely a year full of me extracting the poison from my life.
Getting rid of relationships,
breathing in fresher air…
and not regretting it.

Good year, 2010… Good effing year. o0o!!


TOO JUICED FOR THE NEW YEAR THO WHAT’S GOOOOD 2011?!


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if u get rid of all the people who poison your life,

you'd feel LOADS better,

trust me!!

i experienced! ]]> 2010-12-28T01:30:20+09:00

Please take me away to January...
I'm done with this year...
I'm tired of everyone here..



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One of the saddest part of life is
keeping yourself busy and pushing yourself to the limit all day...

And when you get home,
lying in bed...
you'll discover that after all that you've done to forget,
you're still in that very same position you're trying to escape.



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]]> 2010-12-17T00:57:11+09:00

The toughest arguement is between your heart and your head.

Unfortunately,

your head is usually right,

even though you follow your heart for awhile




]]> 2010-12-15T15:53:15+09:00
Break up is easy,

but how u going to deal with the memories is another story...




]]> 2010-12-05T16:26:14+09:00 Things can be unfair to me,

but all i do just keep quite..

Silent is always a bliss..

Just sometimes, some people will never understand it

]]> 2010-11-24T03:52:14+09:00
Please forgive me...

Somehow I really wish that thing never happened before..

I'm sorry I still have to makes you worry me down there..

I'm sorry to makes you disappointed on me again and again..

I can't be like others to makes you proud

Maybe the things you told mom is all true

I'm just too stupid in everything

and I can't be save myself anymore seriously

Just like what you said,

I'm now lost at the center of the sea, can't search and find the coast of sea

I'm not a good and perfect granddaughter...

I'm sorry and regret that I'm not...

Sadness is fulfill my heart and soul now..

If can, i willing to trade my life for you and dad

Sorry, grandma...

]]> 2010-11-18T22:24:13+09:00 There has a dead knot, and it is cannot be untied...

The only way is to cut it...

If it is cut,

everything will be change to

disappointment and despair...]]> 2010-11-16T23:46:21+09:00 Memories is the most valueble things in the world...

no matter happy or sad...

we can't go back to the past to see it...

but we can remember it because it is in our memories...

sometimes just wish to erase some of the memories...

those that we don't wan to remember...

Agree?


but sometimes, some memories is just hard to erase or cant be erase]]> 2010-11-16T00:45:19+09:00