6 years. but still the same.
2010年06月05日(土) 1時30分
i always thought closing my previous blog would shut out all the memories thats been haunting me. i refused to be reminded of all the bad memories and...those good ones. i was some naive little girl who used to believe everything is sugar spice and everything nice. believe that no one in this world exist to hurt others that much. no hatred, no worries and not even a tinge of unhappiness.
until some one came along and burst all these bubble.
6 years ago. all of me died.
im happy only cause i know i should be, not cause i am.
i build walls keeping all unhappiness out. i refuse to be happy cause i believe by doing so, when things dont turn out like i expected, i wont feel disappointed or upset. i only want to live in the comfort zone of people i know i can trust, people who i know would never hurt me.
and know what?
i was right.
my friends. they are my everything.
until some one came along and burst all these bubble.
6 years ago. all of me died.
im happy only cause i know i should be, not cause i am.
i build walls keeping all unhappiness out. i refuse to be happy cause i believe by doing so, when things dont turn out like i expected, i wont feel disappointed or upset. i only want to live in the comfort zone of people i know i can trust, people who i know would never hurt me.
and know what?
i was right.
my friends. they are my everything.
