I do not have love

July 01 [Fri], 2011, 19:06
Two weeks later, he left, my house and down the deserted, I do not know how to do that empty room. I thought about leasing, but I never thought of the familiar unfamiliar faces, or forget. I told a friend, I'm afraid unsafe, in fact, I did not say, but also because I fear that if the tenant is male, and I will love them. If this is really love, nothing down. But you are afraid I love, but it was accompanied, will be temporarily off the feeling of loneliness. So even if I like a man, I have always felt not really like it, it has been reluctant to admit, has been to avoid the ...
As a hard hard barely numerous cities in the shelter with the single girl, I would rather step on a blind date set foot on the long distance, but also do not want to just fall in love with a man. Just as lonely, just because palpable. Because in the hard process, I have seen too much, the fate of many women around, such as the clear nights the lights and tell me lonely in love who can only love their own loneliness.
Lonely people in love, only love their own loneliness.
22 years old, I finally moved into their own little house, the pattern of good, well-lit, 80 square meters, there are two bedrooms.
I do not have love, a live, big room, I often think I should take the air out of the bedroom how to do, I have storage room when he is, who do not read the book, not cosmetics, raise the need to take care of the plants and flowers piled on the inside, then closed the door, do not open the door for a long long time. This feeling, like suddenly have half the house, I feel not so alone.Sometimes you need to find something, open the door of the room, only to find already covered with dust. I stood in the room should be thoroughly cleaned before do not know or should continue to close the door on their own as everything and nothing.
Then a while, I vacated the room empty, and lost to a former classmate. He was here on business, on the two weeks we shared in this together, he became a door in my neighborhood.During that time I moved into this house after the most exciting moments, like watching TV at night, hear the next room came the faint sound of music, some people took their own toiletries from the bathroom out of a towel and the Stick your tongue before I say to you, like that empty room, is a person's smile, voice, movement fill up the feeling.

I vacated the room empty

July 01 [Fri], 2011, 19:05
Have you, nice! Have you worried about me, my heart will not feel so empty, have you, nice! Let me have your thoughts in the silence of the night will not feel lonely. Have you, nice! There is a wish, you can read people, will feel life is not so boring, you are my spiritual support, let me in a difficult struggle, has been strong not decadent.
In one of the opportunities, you have friends that go to the city, I find an excuse to go along with him, in reality, only to see the most real you. We met, next to all the excitement I did not know, you look petite in the busy business, I stood there silently waiting for you to observe the real you, more than I imagined to be petite.I thought, nice if you could hug.
We keep in eye contact with your smile so charming, and always in the video to see before you a happy smile, the day, good fun, but also feel happy, so we can close the distance since. Well you busy, we stood in the doorway, others are inside the shop. We chatted our own topic, very easy to talk, laugh, and you will also occasionally talk to me close to my ear, feeling happy to chat on the network than usual and more. We all talk about what has always been, and I said my private affairs with you, you want to shame her face told me a good wife, communicate something.
Big eyes looking at you, I tell you, I love you, you just a slight smile, I do not know how much I can understand your feelings.That would leave a lot of bear, reaching to shake hands with you, really do not want to let go, do not want the eyes of our friends found ambiguous, and I very simply tell you goodbye and left.
All the way to you, your sweet smile, warm my heart. Home that afternoon I rush to tell you a lot of words, then we are accustomed to sitting in front of a screen chatting each other's heart. Miss you more and more intense, but I can not figure out your mind, perhaps you just do not want to hurt me, do not want me sad, so occasionally some words to remind me, is not completely rejected.
Early just like you said, I am willing to pay for you, have you moved me such a good woman, I do not care what the worth of.Occasionally, as long as you can chat with you, tell you about my life, as long as I know you too well, I will be satisfied. Love you, though often there are a lot of fantasy, often thought one day with you happy, but I will not force you, even if the video, I also always want you to agree.
Honey, have you, nice! I talk about what you call good, I really can not tell where the good is a good place too much, and sometimes do not know where to start. I knew I miss you, every day, like you, I do not like you, I love you. Thank you I want to have, thank you I have read, thank you I have loved. Honey, have you, really good.




Lonely people in love, only love their own loneliness.
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22 years old, I finally moved into their own little house, the pattern of good, well-lit, 80 square meters, there are two bedrooms.
I do not have love, a live, big room, I often think I should take the air out of the bedroom how to do, I have storage room when he is, who do not read the book, not cosmetics, raise the need to take care of the plants and flowers piled on the inside, then closed the door, do not open the door for a long long time. This feeling, like suddenly have half the house, I feel not so alone.Sometimes you need to find something, open the door of the room, only to find already covered with dust. I stood in the room should be thoroughly cleaned before do not know or should continue to close the door on their own as everything and nothing.
Then a while, I vacated the room empty, and lost to a former classmate. He was here on business, on the two weeks we shared in this together, he became a door in my neighborhood.During that time I moved into this house after the most exciting moments, like watching TV at night, hear the next room came the faint sound of music, some people took their own toiletries from the bathroom out of a towel and the Stick your tongue before I say to you, like that empty room, is a person's smile, voice, movement fill up the feeling.
One night I work overtime late, when he opened the door could not help but blame, how it come back? I almost want to call to your company. His concern is the routine it, in fact, no, we are students, we are familiar, like friends, we generally just do not know why, I am so touched that night in his small living room next to the water, I watched his back was going to go over, leaned on his shoulder, I hesitated for a long time, or not. I know he told me just friends, but I told him, all the goodwill, but this time, he for me fill up my empty room.
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