My Future + Rant

June 25 [Wed], 2014, 14:37
Wow I haven't blogged here since December.

It sure feels good to blog again since there has been many things happening recently in my life..

I will start off with school:
I am planning to graduate next year (end of fall term) and I had it all planned out... in fact, i was also really excited since I get to invite my friends to my convocation.. i've been dreaming of it since nearly all of my friends graduated from university already! and i also want to feel like i've accomplished something major @_@

but the thing is, i might not end up being able to graduate in time :'(
why?
today i failed my crim 1207 midterm and am failing the class..................................
i had it all planned out that if i passed my 3 current courses + 3 final courses in fall term, i would be good to grad.......

but nope..... now i have to retake the course a 3rd time (!!!) next term along with the other 3 courses...... ughhhhhh and possibly 2 other courses...........
SO IN TOTAL I WOULD BE TAKING 5 COURSES NEXT TERM @_@

here is my supposed schedule would look like if i got into all 5 courses:
Tuesday: 4pm-6:50pm (richmond), 7pm-9:50pm (richmond)
Thursday: 10am-12:50pm (surrey), 1pm-3:50pm (surrey), 7pm-9:50pm (surrey)

anyway, i was feeling really sad and drowned myself in sadness with mcds and i think i've summarized everything thats related with school.. if not, i'll be sure to blog the missing stuff again...

Now for the rest of my life:
My bf is job hunting in other countries and when he does get hired (I PRAY THAT HE DOES NOT LOL), he wants me to go with him.
I would go with him in a heartbeat if i didn't have any obligations or responsibilities at home but I do.. I have a son (an animal son lol) and I don't want to be selfish and abandon him while I move away because I'll miss him so much... I even miss him when I go on short trips =__= I just feel very uncomfortable leaving him alone even though my family members will still be here BUT I doubt they would be willing to clean out his litter box >_>

I also don't really know if I can just drop everything and everyone to go with him.
I have friends and family here. I've been living here for nearly 17-18 years (?) but then again, how am I going to live my life if I just stay stagnant here? I've always wanted to travel the world or live somewhere else but this time, it just feels too real unlike my "dreams".

Well, today he told me that he didn't get the job with Google in China (so thank God really LOL i don't have to move to china >_>) but he is thinking of this job in Los Angeles.....
I made him promise me to not leave me so soon because I haven't graduated yet..

Another reason why I want to graduate next term is because he said he would propose to me after I graduate so that when we are engaged and we move somewhere else temporarily for 1-2 years then come back to Vancouver for our actual wedding....

It sounded really exciting for me but as I was thinking more deeply, I am pretty 2000% my mom would NOT let me marry him because he is NOTchristian and would NOT let me leave because i cannot take care of myself and since we are not "officially married", I can't go somewhere alone with him because shit will happen.

But fuck man, isn't this my life? Aren't I the one marrying him? Can't I just live my life FOR ONCE? besides, i am 23 years old ... i'm not even a CHILD anymore... holy cow halfway to 30 AND I STILL CAN'T TRAVEL ANYWHERE ALONE WITH MY BF BECAUSE SHE IS SO TRADITIONAL AND CONSERVATIVE THAT SHIT WILL HAPPEN WHEN WE ARE TOGETHER ALONE AS IF IT DIDN'T HAPPEN ALREADY.

SO RIDICULOUS. JUST BECUS HE ISN'T THE SAME RELIGION AS YOU DOESNT MEAN I CAN'T MARRY HIM. YOU'RE JUST SCARED OF LOSING FACE IN FRONT OF YOUR PEERS AT CHURCH. "OH YOUR DAUGHTER MARRIED A NON-CHRISTIAN?" YENNO FCK THEM ALLLLLL WHO THE FCK CARESSSSS SERIOUSLY DUDE WHO CARES ABOUT THEIR OPINIONS...
YOU KNOW YOU CAN'T JUST FORCE SOMEONE INTO RELIGION...... THAT WOULD PUSH THEM AWAY EVEN FURTHER.....
"you can only marry him if hes christian. therefore, start bringing him back to church."
HOW ABOUT NO?

THIS FCKING SUCKS MAJOR DICK BALLS.

WELL ANYWAY ENOUGH ABOUT THIS MOTHER OF MINE,
my bf and i kind of 'planned' out our wedding last friday LOLOLOL
- who we want to invite to our banquet (probably a limit of 50 people since this dinner is more for really close friends of ours)
- wedding party (maid of honor & bridesmaid + best man & groomsmen)
- the food we want at the banquet dinner
- western style wedding + chinese style dinner
- another 'wedding' for relatives in hong kong

I think he wants this wedding to happen as much as I do because every time I asked him if we can have "the talk", he's always grinning/smirking at me LOL and he does a good job at making me blush cus i think i sound kinda desperate =_____=

I should also hold on about the rings lololol

THAT IS ALL FOR TONIGHT.
THANKS FOR READING, ANNY ;D

Vegas pt 2

December 04 [Wed], 2013, 18:27
So I realized there's a photo upload limit from my phone and I'll continue posting until I finished posting them all!









Las Vegas 2013

December 04 [Wed], 2013, 2:16
I won't go into detail but this trip was me and my babe's 2 year anniversary trip! :)
It was also my long awaited summer vacation since 2010!

I'll let the pictures do the talking:

The hotel we stayed at for 3 nights



A Japanese place for our dinner on the first night

We watched O (cirque du soleil) show and it was amazing..

World's largest chocolate fountain

Very comfortable bed!

Our super nice corner suite bathroom

The place where we had our anniversary dinner

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