むしむし! 

October 20 [Thu], 2005, 18:21
もしわけありません、最近ちょうつといそがしいの出、そのブロクをかきません。だめだめよ!すみむむ!!
ひさしぶりやなあ!!あんたのおなかがいたいんので、わたくしはとてもしんぱいなんですよ。いまはだいじょうぶですか?I am a little bit upset today because i called the job agency which i told you last night, that helps people to find japanese speaking jobs or jobs in japan. The first question he asked me is " can you speak Japanese"? i said yes, then he asked are you from NUS(National universityof Singapore). I am not surprised by his question, because it is common. They prefer students from NUS because it is one of the top uni in the world, and some people discriminate against overseas students because they think they are not so smart so they go overseas and study, i think during my job hunting i will face with more discrimination of this kind, as employers usually prefer students from NUS because they are the 'best'.i am feeling a bit fearful now, i think job hunting is goona be very kowai.compared to those nus students i think i am lousy. and i asked him about the engineer job in Japan. He say the Japanese company prefer to hire male, they dun wan female! another discrimination. he try to say its because it involves handling of chemical, so its too dangerous for female!!!so they trying to say female is too weak/? so jobs like doctors, scientists,enginenr,laboratory jobs are not suitable for females because it involves chemicals and knives?? so females should have more 'safe' jobs like sitting in the office making coffee and typing with their pretty ayumi hamasaki nails??
time for some reality check! i think i will getting into some big trouble with job hunting, maybe i cannot find any job related to japanese speaking.......mugaaaa

OH SHITTTT 

October 05 [Wed], 2005, 14:36
POOO,this is going to be a shitty entry.last night work was shit,it was mad house.Picture this in your mind,35 tables filled up with people, and there are big tables with 10 people,young punks, when i wanna take your order,t hey are not concentrating, they just keep on talking, i am already so busy, do they think ihave time to just stand there and listen to their gossip? so inconsiderate, and there are morons who think they are very rich just cos they have a citibank credit card and boss me around.shitttttt omggggggggg wats the big deallllll, i will get myself a citibank credit card when i start working too!!!and there r morons who asked me for chopsticks when i am so busy just cos he dun wanna use fork, in the end, he dun know how to use chopsticks, and use his fork again!!!!stupid aussiessssssssssssss,and of course stupif bosss,wanna save money, i dun know wat to say, i am extremely depressed, gone for another round of shit tonight!!!

pooopy darlingg 

October 04 [Tue], 2005, 0:05
after i finished talking to my dearlast night,i read his yaplog blog, i was so shocked!!!because he updated his blog again, i didnt expect it!!ok i know now he will say shitsure na!!i know what he will say. i think i must also ganbare because minchi is making effort, and i need to show that i appreciate with him. but recently i feel very happy because i can see him soon.i miss him too much, sometimes i cry!!!sometimes i am afraid some accident might happen to him,and i might never see him again. so i just cry by myself.anyway i told him i will see him in a few days time, but he say dun need. i was upset becos i feel he dun wanna see me and he dun miss me. bohooooooooo!!!!!!
anyway today i went to kardy, i was buying yasai and kudamono from this asian boss,he gave me a free apple becos he say its slightly dented!!i was so surprised,because usually asian boss dun care, they just sell and take your money. even if it is spoil, they pretend it is not and sell it. I was touched by his attitude, so friendly, and he kept smiling to me.yasashi na!!!tuesday is coming, i think i have to wake up early then i can study more, i must use this study break and do as much as possible then i can relax later.i love you minchii!!!!baobaooo

Poopy minchi!! 

October 03 [Mon], 2005, 23:50
after i finished talking to my dearlast night,i read his yaplog blog, i was so shocked!!!because he updated his blog again, i didnt expect it!!ok i know now he will say shitsure na!!i know what he will say. i think i must also ganbare because minchi is making effort, and i need to show that i appreciate with him. but recently i feel very happy because i can see him soon.i miss him too much, sometimes i cry!!!sometimes i am afraid some accident might happen to him,and i might never see him again. so i just cry by myself.anyway i told him i will see him in a few days time, but he say dun need. i was upset becos i feel he dun wanna see me and he dun miss me. bohooooooooo!!!!!!
anyway today i went to kardy, i was buying yasai and kudamono from this asian boss,he gave me a free apple becos he say its slightly dented!!i was so surprised,because usually asian boss dun care, they just sell and take your money. even if it is spoil, they pretend it is not and sell it. I was touched by his attitude, so friendly, and he kept smiling to me.yasashi na!!!tuesday is coming, i think i have to wake up early then i can study more, i must use this study break and do as much as possible then i can relax later.i love you minchii!!!!baobaooo

Laziness 

September 13 [Tue], 2005, 13:04
Last night we had a conversation about laziness. we both think we have beomce lazy. perhaps when two people become used to being together they start to forget things that they used to do. It has been a long time since michi tell me his feelings over email or blog. I was upset yesterday because he didn't give me an long email, and even he email me i cannot feel the passion in his email so much.he told me he need time, but i think his english ability is good enough to type an email without thinking so much.so i am very tired of asking him where is my email and blog? sometimes whenyou dun get simple things like this, i start to feel if i have any status in his heart anymore. sincerity comes from the heart. so i think i will start by blogging frequently now, because he say i also never blog. when will i get this simple pleasures we used to have?where he often try to joke with me, and do silly antics to make me laugh, even our webcam session now seems dead, he is not interested in seeing me anymore,last time he will keep looking at me or do some things to make me laugh,maybe he is tired after he work, things are monotonous now, maybe it has already passed and that day will not come anymore.
LOST MOMENTS CAN NEVER BE CAPTURED AGAIN,SO CHERSIH EVERYTHING YOU HAVE NOW BECAUSE YOU NEVER KNOW WHEN YOU ARE GOING TO LOSE IT.

Hisashiburi 

September 06 [Tue], 2005, 11:57
This blog seems so abandoned,the same goes for minchi's blog. I was re-reading our yaplog blog ,and relinquish the happy times,those were the days where after we argued, we will reflect our feeling on the yaplog blog,telling each other how sorry we are,or trying to explain our feeling to each other.For example last night i had a discussion with Minchi,i think he knows i am feeling insecure about tt issue,in the past he will write on his yaplog blog the next day and try to assure me or explain his feelings. I was flipping through my entries and found one which was about the security guard issue, we argued very much, but minchi still write on his blog the next day and try to explain his opinion and ask me dun misunderstand him.and the nurse issue he also try to assure me Then i felt so safe and protected,i knew i was not alone.Recently, this yaplog is not working anymore,we had an argument last night,this morning minchi rather blog about how boring was his office workshop rather than the usual thing he will write on his yaplog.Perhaps this is the communication breakdown we are having,we dun even bother to try and make things better now,reassuracne are not there anymore,and these words of affirmation seems easy but it actually mean so much to me.or maybe its a form of escape where he rather writes about boring things and say its boring rather than me.or maybe this is just natural? we do get lazy after a while,we dun do things that use to be signifiant in our relationship anymore,and things just go down and down and down.

I am so proud of my M!! 

June 21 [Tue], 2005, 21:56
My M told me this morning that he will be moving to Tokyo tomorrow morning, i was so shocked but i am really happy for him. Since the first day i known M, his dream is to work in Tokyo!!!From day one of his job hunting, i have seen him encountered many setbacks, and now finally his effort has paid off!!! An incredible feat i would say, his determination and perserverance is indeed admirable. I am so proud of my M!!!sugoineeeeee!!! i wanna to tell him dun feel sad he is leaving Himeiji, cos i am always beside him supporting him. and every year he can meet his friends and family!!!i always wish he can do whatever he wants, as long as he is happy, i am happy. Although i don't know what holds ahead of us, i think we just have to work hard, cos nothing comes easy.
i love you M
i will always support you!!!and i am sorry if i made you upset lately.

日本の教育 

June 18 [Sat], 2005, 23:01
日本の高校生は、大学に入るために一生懸命勉きょうしなければならない。有名な大学荷はいれば、私用らい一流の会社などにしうしよくしやすいからである。日本の高校生では、三年せいになると、ぶかっどうをやめて、勉きょうばかりする生徒が増える.毎日自分のがくこうへいくのはもちろんだが、じゆう業がおわっても、すぐにはうちへかえらず塾や予備校へ行ってべんようする。

Gomenne! 

June 11 [Sat], 2005, 15:31
wheee, yesterday argued with M. this morning after i woke up, i realised i am at fault too. what he says does make sense. i cannot just keep thinking about now, i have to see our bright future and what he can do. i said a lot of things to hurt him last night, but i really dun mean my words. just i said it to make him angry.He is the love of my life,i should trust and believe him. i guess i have been feeling very insecure lately because since he will start work next month, our relationship is sort of like entering into a new phase because it will be different i guess. when people start working they start to change. M will say i am too negative but i still think its true. what M say is also true, i really wanna see him badly so i wanna do my part to see him too. so i should work hard .I am really sorry for what i said to hurt you last night, i dun mean my words and dun say i look down on you, because i feel so hurt, never i look down on you. i want you to be confident of yourself so dun say i look down on you.

because you are my beloved buta who is my role model!!!


...and i am sorry to make you upset,but i really miss you


Love you.

continued 

June 08 [Wed], 2005, 18:24
sometimes people cannot see the real me, and you choose to believe others than me.or should i say you already perceive me to be a moronic bitch who has nothing better to do than to complain about people all day long.yes i always believe in saying nice things but depends on who and when. if i dun complain about this security guard this time round, next time there might really be a victim! due to his neglience at work. so its not only me. i am thinking about others too. its like if someone cheats, one have to expose him so to prevent him from cheating others in the future. yea you are upset about bacteria and so am i. u were as nasty as well saying i sleeps around. fine u think i am a bitch a whore, so be it. think whatever u want to think of me.
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