Hello everybody, here I am again~
It has been a really long time ago since I've posted here into my blog. Seriously, many things happened and changed. I've lost some precious friends, met old friends from my past and also life only keeps stressing me up..
Let's start off with the first story: the friends that I lost.
You know, I'm not that kind of person who really opens hisself to others that easily. At first I only try to be friendly to them, but when I'm not considered about the other person - meaning, I don't know what he thinks about me, I'll keep my distance to them. Even over years.
Just that happened to C
and me (due to their privacy, I won't name their names here). Both are best friends and with me, we were a group of 3 girls.
(yea, you know how complicated such a friendship with 3 people can be: one is always an outsider...)
And referring to the small statement above, I
was the one who was always the outsider. And since they started to treat me like shit in the last time, I just quit our friendship.
,,You'll see what you'll have from doing this...''
- they wrote me on a piece of paper during the schoollesson.
(TRANSLATION: ,,Du wirst schon sehen, was du davon hast.'')
I already see it you hoes. Freedom :D
(Of course this is a longer story, but please... the reasons are simple. She started bitching around, saying rude things to me and saying that I'm the worst and I've done NOTHING.
Nonesense? Oh yes, indeed.
But hey, I've already found new friends. And I already know for sure that this is a friendship which will exist for a looong time!
Let's start now with the second
Last summer I quit the friendship with a really good friend of me. We knew each other already for 13 years
(now it are actually 14
!!). But she used to be bitchy to me, too. Well, actually not but... umm? Maybe I started to be bitchy to her and so our friendship suffered, I guess... m(_ _)m''
I quit our friendship last year in the summerholidays. And since then we didn't speak to each other. I wanted to apologize afterwards but I was too...
too... scared and ashamed. m(_ _)m
Last week I left our house just like every morning for school. But this time I thought about her
... What was she doing now and what was her career like? She was supposed to have her first REAL working day then... (And that with 16. Respect my dear! (^_^))
And since she is my neighbour I had to pass her house as every morning. But.
This time some people came out. Two girls. One of them came out, looked at me and looked away again. You know, normal reaction like: ,,Ah, another girl. Okay, got to keep going since I don't want to be late.'' And then she got in the car which was waiting for her.
And then. After her. There was another girl as I mentioned above. She came out after the first girl, closed the door, ran in her golden high-heels and her classy and chic dress to the car and looked up to me, to check who was walking there.
IT WAS HER
My best friend from the past which I knew now for 14 years and with who I quit the friendship.
Of course we are neighbours and stuff but we didn't meet each other even only once in this time since we quit our friendship. I was just astonished.
And she too, haha~!!
She looked at me with her eyes wide open and wasn't able to realise that it was me.
,,Hello'', I said with a smile.
,,Hello'', she said as well.
But I could see that she was scared, irritated and a bit ashamed.
Ah, and that was the end of our conversation. She got in to her car and drove away and I kept on going.
It sounds all just sooo stupid, I know. (´_`) But since then I'm not able to forget her scared and ashamed faceexpression and want to apologize to her.
And I want to do that next week. She is still my most precious friend, I guess. Maybe because we know each other for so long or maybe because she is the total opposite fromme and kept going out to the city with me and shopping and so on.
Yea, now I go shopping with my friends,too. But it's not the same, you know...
Okay, I gonna make myself now some green tea and watch some dramas. Later I'll come online and we can finally chat with each other my hunnies!!