"Do you still love me?" he said. Honestly, I was surprised when I read that. I didn't know what to say and the strange thing is, I felt something. It was painful and it felt like I swallowed a huge pill or something. It was that kind of feeling. For a moment I was sad.
But after shaking it off, I knew that I have to accept the truth. What I felt definitely wasn't love. It was pity, guilt and anger.
Am I being unfair? He left me hanging when I needed him the most. He wasted all of my love and effort. For 3 years, I poured out all of my feelings for him but he just ignored them. Now he demands me to love him? To wait for him? No. That's just too much.
I know that I may sound like I'm being heartless but I have to do this for myself. I have to protect myself somehow. For myself and for those people who truly care about me and understand me. I shouldn't let myself get affected by his painful words.