WHICH MEANS, I IS SPENDING SO MUCH TIME WITH MYSELF
I IS VERY WORRIED ABOUT MY LACK OF INTELLIGENT
CONVERSATIONS WITH THE REST OF THE WORLD.
THIS WAS MENTIONED DURING THE PREVIOUS MEETING WITH
LZH. BUT I SUDDENLY FEEL LIKE BLOGGING ABOUT IT NOW.
BECAUSE TWO DAYS AGO (WHILE I WAS ATTEMPTING TO
RUN AROUND MY ROOM AND MY FRIEND MSN-ED ME,
YEAH THAT SCENE HAHAH) I WAS REMINDED OF IT
OH HOW I MISS HAVING SOMEONE WHO IS APPRECIATIVE
OF MY LONG COLORFUL SENTENCES AND MARVELOUS
WORD PUNS THAT COME SO VERY RARE. SO CAN YOU IMAGINE
THE KIND OF UTTER DEFEAT I FELT WHEN I WAS ENTIRELY
JOYOUS OVER THE MOMENT OF WIT, AND THEN MY
CONVERSATION PARTNER JUST SO CONVENIENTLY
REPLIED "lol" TO THE FUNNIEST LINE I THOUGHT
I'VE PRODUCED BY FAR?!?!?
THE lol WASNT EVEN IN CAPS!
BUT THEN AGAIN, I ALSO GAVE VERY LOUSY LINES LIKE
"that is very sad lor hahaha" TO SOMETHING NOT WORTH
FEELING SAD FOR BUT IT WAS THE KIND OF SITUATION
WHERE A FULL CAPS "HAHAHA!" WOULD LOOK DELIBERATE
BECAUSE ITS NOT VERY FUNNY, AND IF I TOOK TOO LONG
TO REPLY IT WILL TURN OUT ULTRA AWKWARD. SO I HAD
TO RESORT TO "that is very sad lor hahaha"
MUST MAKE A MENTAL NOTE TO AVOID USAGE OF GENERIC
LINES OBVIOUSLY USED WHEN ONE HAS NOTHING TO SAY.
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THIS IS UNSETTLING. I AM IN THE PARANOID MODE NOW.
I AM WORRYING ABOUT EVERYTHING FROM MY THESIS
TO WORK TO MONEY TO CLOTHES TO VOICE TO MY
SHOULDER ACHES. AAAHHH!!!!!!!
THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO FIX AND PERFECT.
AND EVERYTHING IS SWIMMING IN MY MIND I CANT
CONCENTRATE.
THE ZEN HAS BEEN DISRUPTED.