分からない。。。
September 25 [Thu], 2008, 8:41
Long time no writing...
Lots of things happened meanwhile.
I had the best summer of my whole life, where I could run away from my major problems and find my secret sacred haven far from here. There is nothing I can wish more for he is an angel in my life. I love that place, the people, the buildings, everything, and I deeply wish I could be there now, because being trapped in my own black hole again is taking my wings again. Over again.
I am really excited two of my very dearest friends are now on Japan, fulfilling one of their dreams. I am so glad and I wish them the best of lucks. *I wish I was there too ^^*
I can tell my life was almost being perfect, but I costly learnt there is no such thing as perfection... It's nothing more than a produce of our own minds, an ideal to hold to. A stage we all eager to reach... Kinda makes my 完全 tattoo look childish. But it reminds me of a very special person, the person that makes my life make sense today, he is my own fantasy of perfection. I wish "Happily ever after" would exist... I truly do, but I know it does not. Unfortunally everything good will have a soon ending and it makes me really sad. People should not try to force love to happen... it just naturally happens when it's meant to be. I apologize for this poor pathetic lines, but this diary is my companion of loneliness, and I am really sorry if someone is wasting his/her precious time reading this poor lines.
In this very moment my life is really stressful for a lot of things are happening/are about to happen. Let's hope it will turn the best so ever.
何故私は一人きり感じるする？
何故か悲しいをする,でも私はいつもあなたを愛するキアイク...
To finish this post I will write the lyrics of a beloved song, that I dedicated to that someone special and that, in my unworthy opinion is one of the most beautiful songs ever...
恋一夜
濡れた髪を
はじめて見せた夜
心が泣いた
抱かれていながら さみしくて
かさねてゆく
唇でさえ たぶん
答えだせない
熱くなる肌を 信じるのに
瞳を閉じて 願いが
かなえられたと感じた その瞬間に・・・
まだ深い愛がかならずある
わからない わからない どうなるのか
きりがない きりがない ふるえる胸
あなたの腕に狂いながら こわれてしまいたくなる
どこまで好きになればいいの 涙に終わりはないの なぜ
爪のさきが
シャツの背中堕ちて
めまいの嵐
譫言みたいに あなたを呼ぶ
求めあうまま つかんで
確かめあったぬくもり そのさきに・・・
燃えつきる愛が かならずある
苦しくて 苦しくて かすれる声
せつなくて せつなくて 消えない夜
ふたりであたえあえる夢を 嘘になんかしたくない
どこまで強くなればいいの 痛みをふりきれるまで
I hope someday he will understeand the meaning of this beautiful song... I do not wish to extend more, so I guess I will end here... I thank you for every precious minute of your indulgence reading rubbish of a frustrate writer xD
PS: Forgive me for my poor japanese as well. じょうぞじゃありません！(−。−)b
Current mood: Sad
Current song: 恋一夜 by Acid Black Cherry
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