September 25 [Thu], 2008, 8:41
Long time no writing...
Lots of things happened meanwhile.
I had the best summer of my whole life, where I could run away from my major problems and find my secret sacred haven far from here. There is nothing I can wish more for he is an angel in my life. I love that place, the people, the buildings, everything, and I deeply wish I could be there now, because being trapped in my own black hole again is taking my wings again. Over again.
I am really excited two of my very dearest friends are now on Japan, fulfilling one of their dreams. I am so glad and I wish them the best of lucks. *I wish I was there too ^^*
I can tell my life was almost being perfect, but I costly learnt there is no such thing as perfection... It's nothing more than a produce of our own minds, an ideal to hold to. A stage we all eager to reach... Kinda makes my 完全 tattoo look childish. But it reminds me of a very special person, the person that makes my life make sense today, he is my own fantasy of perfection. I wish "Happily ever after" would exist... I truly do, but I know it does not. Unfortunally everything good will have a soon ending and it makes me really sad. People should not try to force love to happen... it just naturally happens when it's meant to be. I apologize for this poor pathetic lines, but this diary is my companion of loneliness, and I am really sorry if someone is wasting his/her precious time reading this poor lines.
In this very moment my life is really stressful for a lot of things are happening/are about to happen. Let's hope it will turn the best so ever.
To finish this post I will write the lyrics of a beloved song, that I dedicated to that someone special and that, in my unworthy opinion is one of the most beautiful songs ever...
わからない わからない どうなるのか
きりがない きりがない ふるえる胸
どこまで好きになればいいの 涙に終わりはないの なぜ
苦しくて 苦しくて かすれる声
せつなくて せつなくて 消えない夜
I hope someday he will understeand the meaning of this beautiful song... I do not wish to extend more, so I guess I will end here... I thank you for every precious minute of your indulgence reading rubbish of a frustrate writer xD
PS: Forgive me for my poor japanese as well. じょうぞじゃありません！(−。−)b
Current mood: Sad
Current song: 恋一夜 by Acid Black Cherry
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