my temper 2 

2006年04月28日(金) 10時00分
(continued from "my temper")

I do dishes almost all the time. other times, I just leave them there for a few hrs but I do it for sure. But that is not enough for her sometimes.

As for the stove, I was very sorry, but as far as I'm concerned, it is not such a big deal. I could call the guy to deliver it on the next day...they were supposed to call me before they delivered, but they forgot that too, you know. ANd here's my roommate who does nothing but complaining about me forgetting about the promise. sure, it was my fault. but couldnt she just call the guy to arrange the next deliverly as well?

i donno... maybe I am too easy on myself.
but I actually admit that it was my fault. And I said sorry afterall.
She is still mad though.
hummm I am very different from her, I feel... I do not get angry with things like this. and keep getting mad at someone... it's kinda waste of time and energy. haaaaaaa I hate to be with someone in disharmony. And I feel really weird now being with her in the same apartment. should i just move out again? hahaha that was just a bad joke! hope everything will be fine soon.

my temper 

2006年04月28日(金) 9時46分
My temper is pretty stable.
I dont get mad so easily though maybe sometimes i cry a lot :p

today was a big day for me and my roommate.
we've been looking forward to this day of receiving a new stove! haha
well, but seriously, the one we have now is too old; 2 out of 4 spots actually heat up for cooking. yeah, it's kinda bad.

esp for my roommate, it was a really happy occasion as she loves cooking.
however, after partying last night at home, while my roommate already being in sleep, I went out to my friend's house to sleep over. I was just not thinking too much of anything at that moment. Long story in short, I've forgotten the promise that I would be at home for delivery while my roommate has to be at work.

Today, I woke up really late, I had another appointment with someone else in downtown. I didnt make it for that either. Not a good day... well, I was just not a responsible person today.

So when I came home, my roommate was angry at me.
She did not come out from her room for a while. I even saw her bf first and chatted with him before I finally saw her.

She was really mad; I could tell... from her face.
So she went... "did you forget about the deliverly today?"
then here comes my bad habit making excuses-" yeah... i didnt think of it till noon. and since i was out of town (which is true, of course), I couldnt make it."
I should have said SORRY first, but I just didnt.
That made her even ANGRIER!

"and by the way, if you say you do dishes, DO IT"
yeah.. i know. I did it before i left. but there were more to do.
I was gonna do it once I get home, but she hates seeing dishes in the sink, so whenever she sees something, she just does it no matter what.

Relationships 

2006年04月18日(火) 6時04分
I dont know why things dont go as we wish.
Timing is always difficult...

I had a friend, a very nice one.
But the friendship with him broke down, it seems.
It happened all the sudden when he wanted more than friendship with me.
He tried in any way to be close to me physically, and it bothered me a lot.
Why cant friends stay friends?

I hate to be dishonest, so I had to tell him how I felt.
I did...and that supposedly hurted him so much.
Well, and his reply hurted my feeling even more.

Just telling the guy I do not wish for more than friendship...is it that harsh?
maybe it is... but isnt it better than flirting without feelings? maybe it isnt.
who knows what is right. who knows what is wrong...

I am tired of relationships.

After having a little troble like this, I always feel like not seeing anyone.
my dream of getting married or having a child quickly dissapears from my future sight. haaaaaa

and here my ex goes...
"you are not credible; you said you wouldnt talk to him. but you're writing to him!"

GIVE ME A Gxx Dxxx BREAK, Man!!!!!!

LEAVE ME ALONE, s.v.p.

seriously... I need break from relationships.


もうどうにでもなってくれ・・・ 

2006年03月10日(金) 23時27分
という心境になってきた。

新しいアパートでの暮らし、
楽しいけど
ちょっとだけしっくりこないこともある。

彼との友達ごっこも
もう疲れてきたし。
なんだか恋人なんていらないんじゃないかと思う。

世の中
しっくりこないことだらけかも。

もうどうにでもなれ!!

そんな心境。

やっぱり疲れてるのかなー最近。。。

Moving...tomorrow... 

2006年03月05日(日) 10時04分
Now that i'm close to my day of moving,
i'm not quite sure if I really wanted to move out from my current place.
but i have a girl taking my room from 12th this month, so yeah, i have to move out...

I have a weird feeling lately whenever i go out with my new roommate.
I dont know why, but my feeling is just not fitting right to hers here and there.
And somewhat I am always tired after meeting her. Maybe that's just coz of all the clearning we had to do for the new place. who knows...

Just this moving is making my life miserable, I feel.
It consumes energy, time, and money.
I have not enough time to study or work on assignments.
I have not enough money to hang out with friends.

I really dont know if this was worth it...
by struggling with a relationship with own friend,
what i wanted badly deep in my mind is now under veil...

引越し・・・したい? 

2006年03月05日(日) 9時57分
なんだか
ここ2日ほど
疲れのせいか
本当に引越しをしたいのか
わからなくなってます。

でも引越しは明日。
次に今の部屋を引き継いでくれる子も決まってるし
もう引っ越すしかありません。

もやもやもやもや
してます。

元彼と親友 

2006年03月02日(木) 22時26分
先月モトカレが友達になった。
というのも、
彼と別れたから。
でもお互い好きなので(恋とかじゃなくって友達として)
友達になろうと決めたの。

でも、やっぱりふとした瞬間に
寂しくなっちゃうね。
彼だった人が急に友達になるって、
思ったよりも複雑。

友達として遊んでいる時間が
楽しくて
あー友達になってよかったって
そう思う反面
もう恋人ではないんだなぁ・・・って
思ったら
やっぱりちょっと悲しくなっちゃう。

でも彼と付き合ってたころ
もやもやして
気分が晴れなかった毎日を思うと
今は気分も晴天かな。

なんでも時間が解決してくれるはず。
前を向いて歩こう。

もうすぐ引越し 

2006年03月02日(木) 22時21分
もうすぐ引越しです。
でも実はどうやってベッド運ぶのかまだ決まってません〜
昨日アパートにほぼ全て荷物を運び終わったんだけど
前の住人さん、部屋きれいにしていかなかったの!
今日は友達(新しいルームメイト)とアパートの掃除にいきます。
たぶんかなり時間かかるんだろうな。
でも掃除もわくわくするよね。
だって、きれいになったときうれしいもん。

でもね、昨日友達が引越し最中に泣いてて
どうしていいかわかんなかった。
どうして泣いてるのかもわかんなかった。

それが気になって気になって
せっかくいったレストランでも
メトロに乗ってるときでも
全然気分が晴れないの。

私って本当に複雑にできてるんだなぁ。

土曜日の引越し、それから引越し後、
ちゃんと仲良くやっていけるんだろうか・・・。

本当に心配になってきました

Moving to a new apartment...2 

2006年02月28日(火) 12時18分
I put an add online to sublet my room on the same night coz I wanted to make sure somebody else will take my place before I move out. And if my friend and I decided not to move out afterall, I could just take out my add. It was just such simple thought.

But then, my two friends got into fight. My friend A claimed that I encouraged B to move out from the apartment by telling her how much A didnt like her. and therefore, A started hating me and said she was feeling ill coz she believed I was a friend to her. And this did not come from A's imagination. A also said B told her all this.

What am I supposed to do hearing this?
I had no idea why things go nasty like this...

To me, this is rediculous.
B says she never told A about anything.
A says B told her I dont like A at all.

I like them both, and want to believe them both.
but unfortunately, they are contradicting to each other...

I was totally happy thinking about how wonderful my moving with B would be!
And now, I am just far from there...
I dont know whom to trust, and whom to call friends.

The day after tomorrow, I am moving into a new apartment.
B is moving in about a week later.
And A will never visit us...

oh yeah, and worse comes to worst, according to B's diary, B and A were such good roommates!

YEAH RIGHT!!!!

FINE, so I was just making all up. And I crashed the friendship. I hurted A and B. yeah, I am such an evil!!!

Now I dont care what the truth is coz I am too tired to spend my time for thinking about this friendship.

Things go as they're supposed to...
and they change over time.

Happy moving?
I dont think so.

but hey, it all depends on how you change ur own mind.
If I think I am happy, no matter what ppl say, I am happy!
so, here, I will be optimistic.
I will be happy with my new roommate.
I will be happy with my new apartment...

Moving to a new apartment...1 

2006年02月28日(火) 11時46分
Because of disharmony among friends, one of my friends decided to move out from her current place. Things went really well first. Her roommate (also my friend) and she was getting along perfectly, and I was there quite often, hanging out. Yet at some point, each one of them started complaining about each other. well...I must say it's not surprising to have such complains as they stay together long enough to notice every little unpleasant behavior of each other. But it is not pleasant to hear, of course.

One night, I was drinking with one of the two, and as usual, she started talking about her roommate. I then started having a feeling that they do not appreciate and have respect to each other; and therefore, they might need to have a break. She was telling me how badly she wanted to move out from the apartment. So I suggested her to do so.

We were thinking about moving in together by July when her current roommate goes back to Japan, which is also the time my contract terminates. But then I thought, "hey, if my friend moves out now, why cant i just move in with her now instead of later?" And that's how we ended up looking for an apartment together.
■プロフィール■
elephant rose
name: ikuko konno
general info: 1982年5月17日生まれ。札幌出身。現在カナダ・ケベック州・モントリオール在住。某大学でマーケティングを専攻。現在英語はさておき、フランス語を学びたいという欲望にかられている・・・。
カナダではルームメイトと2人暮らし。日本の家族は両親と姉が1人。姉は来年結婚♪おめでたい!!私は結婚できるんだろうか・・・(謎
2006年04月
« 前の月  |  次の月 »
1
2 3 4 5 6 7 8
9 10 11 12 13 14 15
16 17 18 19 20 21 22
23 24 25 26 27 28 29
30
最新コメント
アイコン画像Abraham Morin
» my temper 2 (2007年12月19日)
アイコン画像vente entreprise
» my temper 2 (2007年01月30日)
アイコン画像time share - gatlinburg
» my temper 2 (2007年01月06日)
アイコン画像employment agencies ghana
» my temper 2 (2006年12月30日)
アイコン画像あーつん
» もうどうにでもなってくれ・・・ (2006年03月28日)
プロフィール
  • プロフィール画像
  • アイコン画像 ニックネーム:ikuclico
読者になる
Yapme!一覧
読者になる