IELTS

April 24 [Wed], 2013, 12:39
悔しい。悔しい。悔しい。悔しい。悔しい。悔しい。悔しい。悔しい。悔しい。悔しい。

アイエルツ、できなかった。

なんだか自分自身のことまでもが、否定された気分。

でも、、、

そんなこと思っちゃダメって、

きっとこれは試練なんだ、って

わたしはまだまだできるって

そういうことなんだと思う。

わたしには、試練が与えられて、

もっともっと必死に生きろって

そういうことなんだ。

悔しいのは、以前よりも下がったこと。

勉強したのにも関わらず。

でも、こころの中には

なにくそって気持ちが溢れてて

自分自身をまだまだ信じているわたしがいる。

わたしはわたしであることを否定されたわけじゃない。

ただ、スコアに達する力がなかった。

ただ、それだけ。

でも、それは達することのできるスコアだった。

次回までに、スコアを上げる勉強をしよう。

わたしの道は、決して簡単じゃない。

わかってる。

そういう道を選んだのは、わたし。

だから、真っすぐ、よそ見をせず、

夢だけを見つめてがむしゃらに。

いま、気づいたこと。

わたしの名前には、

真っすぐの真がある。

真っすぐ生きることに背中を押していてくれる。

だから、どんな道でも、わたしは前を向いていく。

失うものは、なにもない。


love...

Thank you

April 17 [Wed], 2013, 6:55
I'm thinking to start Arigatoh diary from now

which is a diary written about the event I feel appreciate in a day.

I think it will be nice and make my life more happy

because people who write Arigatoh diary are more likely to appreciate others and try to do something good or to be nice to others.

Therefore, I will do it from now.

Today's Arigatoh is...

Saori accompany me to go to Kent Uni library and study from 7:00~9:30

Thank you, Saori as always♡

love...

SEE

April 14 [Sun], 2013, 19:01
AVOIDING TO SEE INSIDE ME

I FEEL IT WRONG

NOW, IT'S TIME TO CHANGE

SEE MY MIND

DO NOT LOOK AWAY FROM ME

WHAT I WANT TO DO

WHAT I WANT TO BE

HOW I WANT TO CHANGE

THEN

PLAN TO DO SO

AND

DO IT NOW.

TIME WAITS FOR NO ONE.

GO GO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FEEL WIND ONLY AS I RUN

I LIKE IT

I FELT IT IN TOKYO LIFE, NOT HERE

BUT, I WILL FEEL IT, OH DEAR

EVERYONE WAIT WHEN I RUN WITH SMILE

LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH

ENJOY MYSELF WITH HARD LIFE

THEN I THINK I WILL FEEL I HAVE CHANGED MYSELF

NOT YET

BUT IT GANNA HAPPENED SOON

YEAH YEAH

TIME WAITS FOR NO ONE.

love...

paris

April 13 [Sat], 2013, 0:28
i went to paris with Hikari

it was awesome and we had such a nice time there
although we faced many troubles, mainly for Hikari...sorry dear...

But, it's the true attraction of trip, hah?

We both had not beeb there before, but we could much about paris more than those who visits on tour with guides.

we know who ganna let us know the street in strange town (Hotelman)
we know who ganna danger to us (look at their eyes)
we know what should we do at that time (run and never give money even they say it's for charity and just say no! and F)
we know how we travel from canterbury to paris (we need to copy the ticket # into a paper or print out extra ticket in case otherwise need to buy new ticket like Hikari...)
we know how uncomfortable to sleep in sofa in a ship

paris is not safe place for japanese people because they are always taken their money easily from thieves.

they should protect by themselves
that's important more outside Japan

But it's not only thing I got to know through Paris trip

we know how french foods are ce born (delicious in french)
we know how the chanzerise street is long (2km)
we know how the Eiffel Tower is shining in the sky (Diamond frash)
we know how parigenne are nice and beautiful and cool
we know how they are fashionable
we know how french lang is nice (actually i'm thinking to learn it some day)
we know how paris is adorable!!!


Thanks hikari
I'm happy to travel with you and it was very Bon Boyage, hah?
I think the most important thing to travel with someone is to make sure the purpose of the trip
for example,
the purpose can be shopping, sightseeing, museum, experience of life, feeling of living, surviving, etc...
perhaps, we might have a different point of view for this trip, we could consider about each other, just it was nice and it makes this trip nicer.

love...

aaa

March 19 [Tue], 2013, 7:03
Ochikomu!!!

aaa...

watashi wakatteru.

aaa...

I know how the things are going on.

aaiuno sukikunai

I don like that.

dakara ignore.

So, mushi mushi.

I do not care someone who say bad things about me

I have not time to care such a poor.

I will leave when you let me down.

Grow up, man

bye bye baby...

love.

Do ryo ku

March 04 [Mon], 2013, 7:24
I gradually get thinking positive way in study.

Actually, I have lots of tons of things to do

even in my expectation and I ganna panicked in tears.

I do not think I ganna 7.0 overall for IELTS this time

, which I really need to get for going uni.

I know what to do.

All I need is not being panicked, annoyed, crying, nor running away.

ALL I NEED IS WORKING HARDEST EVER<3

I know, I KNow, I KNOWWWW!!!!

So, I have decide to study every single minute, which I like to say recently...♡

The thing I can imagine in my heart and brain can be real in my life,

yes, only in my life, it can be happened.

No one else.

love,

1 week

February 23 [Sat], 2013, 7:04
1 week past from the half term holiday

which was kind of hard and got tired a bit, but i enjoyed this week.

I need to concentrate to do work hard continuously keep smiling.

Today, I went to the African evening and it was good and everything was new to me.

love,

Meditation

February 20 [Wed], 2013, 7:25
As following the theory of my favorite book 'The Willpower Instinct' by Kelly McGonigal, I keep doing meditation at every single day and control my mind and body positively.

It brings me many good things like

fresh mind, calmness, positive thinking, self-condidence, as same as self-esteem and thanking for everything I have got since I was born on this world.

In fact, I used to do meditation before, but I could not last it without any reason and I just feel now thatI will be able to keep doing it, I do not know why, but just I feel so.

Because it makes me happier then before I do, that's it.

While I do meditation, I feel like a part of this world, yeah actually it is true though, and I really am happy to be the ONE.

That's very HOLY, isn't it?

And, gradually, I feel somehow strong power in my face, which is between eyebrows what we called the fifth chakra in India.

Indian people think that people have some kind of power in themselves and when it has appears, they feel something numb, let's say.

As many times I do meditation, I feel such a numb easily and it provides me a power to do everything and concentration.

Although meditation is one of the ways to make myself change or improve much better in my life and I just am following the way written in the book, I am sure it changes me obviously and I feel really happy to live now, which is good mentally.

I would keep meditation forever in my life and I am wandering just that what kind of person I can be though meditation.

I think this book has already gave me a power of happy efficiently, even meditation is the first step of the ten section in the book.

I like this book, thanks Kelly.

love.

WIND

February 17 [Sun], 2013, 23:46
Feel wind
That's all but all I need is THAT.

I feel alive and breath deeply.
My mind is getting laughing slightly.

I can be what I want to be

War horse

February 15 [Fri], 2013, 6:16
I went to London to see WAR HORSE, finally!!!!

Which was very good, best than ever, fantastic, and most sensational musical.

I was very grad to see it with Akari.

The horse, JOY, was taken care by a boy in the short time before the WWII.

He learnt a lot of things from the boy and he could understand the difference the boy and another by their calls.

Joy was a very talented horse ever and he knows love from the boy.

They are like a real brother and obviously they are a part of them for each other.

It is very likely the relationship between me and grace, by the way.

However, they have to be separated because the war has started, and his father sold Joy to the military to get money.

And, Joy survived from the war although there were many difficulties he has to face to.

Then, the boy never gave up to find Joy and joined the army to look for his eternal friend.

With the ring of the bell, which represents the end of the war, they finally met each other in a base as the boy whistled for Joy with fate.

Joy was looked like a real alive horse and I never thought it is made form just wood when I was enjoying the musical.

Although I could not understand a part of the story, which was including French because it was the fight between UK and France, I really enjoyed it and if I have a chance in the future, Im sure I would go to see it.

love,
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