Elaine Lim

At this moment, I'm feeling very upset. Feeling, useless, lonely, empty, afraid...

I have not been myself lately, i dont know... Just sad like a box that cant be filled up.. No matter how i try to fill or stuff in things, it just wont be full.. Is always empty..

Maybe Im very used that everyone is beside me, like sister.. Since baby till now, she is always with me.. But as time pass, she got more and more appointments, well she have a boyfriend, one day she will get married.. She wont be with me forever.. *headsup to see the example of my auntie and mummy* I shouldn't interfere her way of life.. But somehow, sad.. I should really try to get use to my life without her anytime from now.. I dont wish to stress her or anyone..

What I'm afraid, is.. I dont know to imagine, who will appears in my future... Or there's no one will be appearing? God said, we are here in this world like a tourist, will return to home one day.. I wish I can return home soon, so all these feeling will be gone..

I'm getting more n more anti-social, i found it... And I also found that, is hard for me to talk to anyone anymore.. Am I going back to what I am when my primary school time? ......

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Awww.. I miss blogging days! Im back now! *I hope I can continue blogging always*

This is the most public, but also the most private place for me to write my happenings here.
Is okie if no one reads, then I can scold and vent my anger here wahaha..

Yep, I turned to 24 just 2days ago! Anyway, age is just a number, most importantly is mental age! haha..


This is all the presents I received from friends & relatives. So Happy, and touch that people can remember my birthday. Thank God, Im not alone to celebrate my birthday even Im single. haha.


Ang Zao Mee Sua! My fav <3 Is Fu Chow people's traditional to cook for birthday. My mum will cook during family member's birthday and Chinese New Year. We all love this! Really Yummy!

And recently, my mum got a Iphone4 for herself.. But, it cause me high blood pressure.. *Teach till Vomit Blood, she not good in Eng* Dont know is good or bad for her to have a Iphone... ZzZ I hope I will continue to control my temper.. Is not that I dont like to teach her, problem is she always forget just in 2 days time. And she dont want to write down.....

Alright quite late, time to sleep~!

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I feel like blocking my ear.. now I know why my sis sometime sick also don't take MC. because, parent nag like hell! I dun understand, why?! People sick u still think for company?

I thought other people de parent will ask them to rest instead of push people go work?? why my parent is another way round?? I haven angry, yet they start angry. I do feel sad ok, their mouth tell me they will support me to quit current job. after I tender, they start to ask me "really ah? dun wan to think it over?" I feel like kena betrayed. At first if you don't support me, then dun say! why say like and after tender make me feel I'm bad, feel regret, not firm???

im just that weak, what u wan me to do. whenever we sick maybe not big illness, but u think we are acting! I feel disappointed you know.

I know every job have stress, but this job really have phobia. The responsibility is very high than I can bear. oversold can't hold it anymore. You all gave me the courage to tender, but after tender I don't feel like I'm support by family. sadder.. forget it, other than God, I not trusting anyone else.. human cant be trusted.. including all man.

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Went to Milly’s @ bugis outlet last thurs with Jiafeng. Did my Gel extensions. See, is it nice?


I like it a lot. =D Will be doing it again if it can last more than 2 weeks. So far, it feels better than fake nails. More natural in look & feel. Just abit difficulty in typing.. Haha..

Last week, I spoke to Sis Lee Fen. I told her that I need to take 2month break from Choir. I think that my life now is in a mess, I need time to sort all these out. I really.. sigh.. I hope everything will be back to normal soon. Back to the Happy PingPing!

Last month went to Anna's NBC outlet to buy these! My fav Rilakkuma!


Cute right, I Love it. I need all these, calendar, organiser. Without the an organiser, Im sure I will forget lot of things..

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Recently maybe of a slightly peaceful days, still thinking, is it good to leave or stay? But today, prove that is good to leave, because this place doesn’t suit me. I should leave for good? I guess.. All these questions are keep on running in my mind..

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我。。好像。。失恋了。。

-Speechless-

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Yep, Im back from my Genting trip. Is cooling and fun. But dont feel like updating the story up there, as is 5day trip. If I want to write, it will turn out to be a compo. haha..

My life now is like... I don’t know,.. All my plan is in a mess, and I had been lazy to sort it out now.. Maybe lets wait awhile more, give me more time, even though... I do not know how much time left in my life.

I think I’m going to do something special in my life, things that I didn’t do it before. And it going to be the craziest things I ever did in Elaine’s life. I wont say it now. Will keep it as a small secret till the day come! Haha..

Cherie nv er is so cute and creative. I mentioned before in FB that I love the feeling when drinking a cup of hot tea while sitting and looking at beautiful scene. She tried, but she tried it at night. Girl ah~ At night so dark, where got things to see, the feel will become different de~! That’s why u will think of why are you sitting there.. haha!! You should try it when you go Genting in December. You will know how it feels.. hehe..

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Recently has been watching Thailand dramas. Infact, they act very well, you should try to watch. After you watch it, you won’t be racist anymore! Hehe.. There a lot of handsome actortoo, not only Korea. But their handsome is different type. Korea/Japan guys is most of beauty/pretty handsome type. Thailand is most on 'Man' type, look strong. Is all those mature yet handsome rich guys. Anyway, once you watch, you will like it. Because, they are more realistic. =)

These are the Thai Drama I had watch, I only watch what is nice and not boring. You can go and search from Tudou or youtube =)

丘比特的圈套，临时天堂，�K色幽默，爱在路上，爱的被告，破碎的心，爱情洗牌 many more ..

I was taught by my teacher in ITE, that saying ‘whatever’ is very rude. But recently this word keep come out from Andy. So I think, I'm taught once again, by saying 'whatever' is a good weapon.

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You didnt know right.. Things that you done, make me feel hurt. Maybe I'm too positive.. Stupid people will never get to be with person who are smart.. Dont know is I stupid or you stupid.. You just cant see me.. Too near or too far? Maybe thats our difference.. I'm tired.. Got no more energy to go on.. I dont know what you are thinking.. Maybe coz of my stupid brain, I just cant think..

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Sunday enjoyed my trip to Sentosa with Cherie, Mabel, Andy and Eve. I think the previous time I went there is 2years ago.. It changed a lot! Although got 2 people late but I still get to enjoy and relax just as plan. After playing at beach, we went to Bugis for steamboat dinner. I think Mabel and Andy enjoyed “suan-ing” me. Haha.. Should thank me for the entertainment ok. =p I think go to beach to play with sands and seawater is fun. Is really a relaxing thing to do on Sunday? Thanks Daddy for coming to fetch me. Inside car is full of noise and peoples, and they are my beloved Granny and Great Aunt. On day time didn’t realise my sun burn skin. Until when I reach home, switch on the light, then Granny asked me “Aiyo, why you put so much blusher on your cheek? So red lor!” I run to my room and see the mirror and I was… *LOL* “I never put blusher la, I kena sunburn..” My granny’s reaction is so cute <3

Oh my, I dreamt of my K boyfriend yesterday! Inside dream, he looks more handsome. +_+ blinks. Hahaha.. But after wake up, I can’t remember what I dream of… Only know I dreamt of him. =p I think I miss him too much, that’s why this happened.

Yesterday chatted with Bubby when I’m on my way home. He asked me a few questions. But those questions… are those that he didn’t ask me before, so I’m quite surprise. One of the question makes me laugh out loud.. No, is not because of the question, but is the way he asked, his tones. JH ah... Is impossible for me and the ‘someone’.. He will never like me. And doesn’t mean he is good looking, then I will fall in love with him.. You must be dreaming ya? Is not that I look down on myself, but is really impossible.. Neither external look nor internal look, for him and for me..

P.S: BTw, Andy's mouth, I think even use detergent also cannot clean it till white! Is so poisonous!! Cant he control himself? Feel like slapping his mouth! {怒}

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