April 27 [Wed], 2005, 9:03
-as usual I can't sleep. I feel a bit depress.
sometimes I have this problem. after came back to Japan from London,
For me familiar to a life in London, the life in Japan wasn't comfortable.
When I was in there, I could be myself without any thinking.
what am I writting! may be I'm a bit nervous. is better go to bed!!!
tomorrow will be another day... hope so.
April 26 [Tue], 2005, 15:00
-It start rain. I like rainy day. May be it remind London.
sometimes I remember the time when I was in there and I miss there...
my friends... my teacher... and so on.
Well... Now I'm not working.
a year ago I got marry. so I'm house keeper.
but I don't have consciousness of having got married.
That is problem... How many people have same feeling like me?
about money... about love... about life... I can't feel the difference.
April 26 [Tue], 2005, 14:45
-I opened the refrigerator to make my lunch.
Unfortunatly, It was empty. actually I'm on a diet at this moment.
4years ago, my weight was 45kg(162cm)...a year ago 50kg... now
It is 55kg! so I decided to do diet. till this summer I'll ...no I have to
be slim. So I crosed the refrigerator. just forget about foods!
April 26 [Tue], 2005, 10:00
- I just wake up. went to bath room. i hate this moment...
wash my face and put the contactlens on.
than, I see my face. what's the fuckin' ugly face!!!
well...I'm 28 years old...not 17 or 18 girl... so, I understand
I'm no more teenager. but rality is cruel.
I need sigarette.