Bitchy you 

2008年12月30日(火) 12時48分
I am so speechless.
Now what? Is the contract she gave us this morning a threat?
Is she threatening us?
Who on earth will define a rule like: "finish your breakfast in 5 mins"; or "do your best in weekly cleaning day"; or like "talking behind your supervisor is forbidden".
Unbelievable.
And she is talking about free thinking.
Free thinking my ass.

I always am and always will be a workaholic. However, it depends on who I am working for.
I am glad to work around the clock for a respectful supervisor in many case, and I did. But she is not like that.

Personally, I don't see her trying so hard; and she is definitely not a workaholic. In my guess, she has the potential being a sadism.

The day we spent almost 8 hours on a meaningless, totally inefficient meeting, her inconceivable smile almost made me out of control.

How come? What made you so happy when we just sitting and staring at each other blankly? What's the point if we couldn't make any decision after the long, stupid 8 hours?

Thus she smiled, smiled like her book was on the top of the chart.

I just don't get it.

And now she keeps me waiting on a delaying meeting that was supposed to be on 10am.
For she hasn't even take a look on the material I gave her yesterday, 3pm.

Nice. Good job.

As I say, she is elegant, and bitchy, which makes her an incredible, elegant, bitch.

Dilema? 

2008年11月16日(日) 4時19分
She did it again.
Damn.
What do i suppose to do?
There's no way to quit the job. At least not for me.
It sucks. But i have no choice.
I need to stay.

You're beautiful, and elegant.
You're experienced, much more experienced.
But you're also bitchy. So bitchy.

Go to hell.

speak it out! 

2008年10月23日(木) 12時13分
gosh i am so pissed up.
i am sick of it. so sick of it.

just tell me what the hell you want, stop trying to be nice and gentle, such an opinions are complete shit to me and totally waste my time, and yours, isn't it?

either you like it, or you don't like it. what did you mean by "a tiny adjustment"? please define "tiny", please, a TINY suggection about where should be adjusted.

but your answer is fuxking paradoxical, how do i know what you want?

damn i hate those circumlocutory perpole.

sick of it...really really sick of it...

say it! say it out loud! damn you!

are you kidding me? 

2008年10月21日(火) 21時06分
i don't get it, what makes her think that i can finish everything on time, by my own?
by my own, alone?
is she crazy? or i am the crazy one?

anyway, i felt awful today.

though there was nothing particular happened and things went quite smooth, i was just upset.

maybe it's because the ugly cover design.
maybe it's for my inability of writing a perfert briefing that she told me to do.
maybe i care too much about her threat.

gosh, she threatened usand claimed that all she wanted was to cheer us up.
where's the logic?
by threatening us that we might get fired for not devoted to our job.

put a security camera all over the office if you must. i don't care.

i really don't.

Kid Nation 

2008年05月17日(土) 12時32分

This is interesting.

The producer got the idea from the story "Flies", which describes an island there's only children, none adult.
The kids need to learn how to survive, even though they don't know what to learn, how to learn, where to learn.

And the show got an eyes-catching slogan:

"40 kids, 40 days, no adult"

And i suddenly realize that all the reality shows are telling us the same thing:

"those children are not like adult, it is the adult acted like children"

See! The girls in the America's Top Model, they fight like children, avoiding to take the responsibility of cleaning or setup a trap to other girls.
And there's no need to mention Amazing Race. Many mature adults, mum and dad perhaps, fight as hard as hell.

i like kids nation better. though it was a bit dangerous survive game for kids, but i feel much more comfortable to see children acted like children, not adult acted like children.

Go, kids.

edge-pusher 

2008年05月17日(土) 12時24分
Happy happy.

I guess i should've know my limit, and their limit.
The point is: I should push myself harder, to the edge; but they should not be the one to push me, and force me to the edge.

Because I know when to stop when I am too close to fall, they will never know.

They will keep pushing and pushing until I fall.

They just never know.

So I guess I have to deceive them on my schedule.

It has to be.

heavy metal cure my heart 

2008年05月04日(日) 18時24分
heavy metal cure my heart.

i guess.

i 'm not happy. i'm tired, angry, full of tears now.

i don't understand. i'm a human being not a working machine.
And with that extremely low payment, how dare you want me to work 24/7.

Gosh.

so i put myself into the heavy metal. follow the beat and lyrics, cursing the world, cursing my crazy chief editor.

you're crazy, you bitch.

Around the World-Monkey Majik 

2008年04月14日(月) 22時55分
アーティスト:MONKEY MAJIK
アルバム:Thank you
発売日:2006年5月24日

#10 Around the World

EVERYNIGHT I LOOK TO THE SKIES
AND WONDER WHAT WE DID
ALWAYS A NAIVE POINT OF VIEW
THAT BREAKS US IN THE END

IF I COULD FIND THE MEANING OF IT ALL
I'D TAKE THE CHANCE
MAYBE IN TIME WE'LL WALK THE MILE
AND CHANGE IT IF WE CAN

IT'S NOW AND ALWAYS
(HOW DID WE GET THIS FAR)
ALWAYS
(WE'RE MAKING A BRAND NEW START)
ALWAYS
(NOTHING ILL HOLD ME DOWN)
ALWAYS
(WAVE GOODBYE TO ME!)

AROUND THE WORLD 新しいことに
AROUND THE WORLD フミダスチカラで
AROUND THE WORLD 世界は変わるさ

BUT DON'T RUN AWAY 'CAUSE IF IT'S NO OK!

I'LL CHANGE THAT WORLD
(INTO SOMETHING BETTER HONEY! )

限り無く広がるこの大地を
僕らはまだ歩き続けるさ

全ての意味が分かるのならば
この瞳で何を見つめるのだろう


IT'S NOW AND ALWAYS
(HOW DID WE GET THIS FAR )
ALWAYS
(WE'RE MAKING A BRAND NEW START)
ALWAYS
(NOTHING WILL HOLD ME DOWN)
ALWAYS
(WAVE GOODBYE TO ME!)

AROUND THE WORLD 君だけのために
AROUND THE WORLD 探し続けるよ
AROUND THE WORLD 奇跡のかけらを

BUT DON'T RUN AWAY 'CAUSE IF IT'S NO OK!

AND YOU KNOW IT'S GONNA BE RAINING
AND YOU KNOW IT'S GONNA BE HARD
AS LONG AS WE TRUST EACH OTHER
NOTHING GONNA BREAK APART OH NO! NO!

IF YA WANNA BE SOMEBODY
GET UP ON YA FEET AND GO
I KNOW WERE GONNA MEET EACH OTHER
SOMEWHERE ALL AROUND THE GLOBE

AROUND THE WORLD いつでも自分に
AROUND THE WORLD 負けてる人は
AROUND THE WORLD 何も掴めない

BUT DON'T RUN AWAY 'CAUSE IF IT'S NO OK!... x2

I'LL CHANGE THAT WORLD
(INTO SOMETHING BETTER HONEY!)



Monkey Majik 大好き!(DEF TECHも大好き!)

No, I'm satisfied 

2008年04月13日(日) 2時57分
Raining, raining and raining.

The weather here sucks.

Slept 'til 12PM, i feel a little dizzy. i always consider me and my family have some kind of hard-work gene. Always takes the responsibility and picks up the thing people left on the way. and the worst part (for me) is to sleep more than 10 hours, if i slept over 10 hours i'll get an headache...

How on earth would people get headache only because they sleep too much!?

Well, i'm that pitty one who get the headache for sleeping too much.

Okay, i admit, i'm a workaholic, from head to toe.

So i guess i can fit and need the life form - Get up early and go to bed on time. And that makes my pain of period go away! (or because i've quit caffeine for 3 months)

And now let's squeeze some nerves with few horror movies.

Howling! spirits!

Weekwend Weakness 

2008年04月12日(土) 13時10分
Black finger nails, a little piss inside.

Finally it's weekend now, i'm happy, and hollow.

why?

'coz i wanna go to a movie but my friend has a date and can't go with me!

No no no no...NO!

i've been waiting for this film from 4/3 (released) 'til now, the thought of going to the theater spending 90 minutes in its exciting story and special effects supports me through the boring working hours...

Now the clock is going to tick from the beginning -- AGAIN!

Sad.

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