ja 2008-02-28T23:29:22+09:00 MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVED !]]> 2008-02-28T23:29:22+09:00 HELLO.

its a lazy saturday afternoon once again
and i dun feel like mugging though i should be.

rahrahrah how to in such a weather !
and im in such a grouchy mood still.

so am going to binge and watch my dramas.
:\

anyway i love going out with the cousins. !
been such a long time since i did anything with them.
so happy :DDDDDDD and i wanna do more!

im not making sense again. MUST be the heat. haha.]]> 2007-07-14T13:52:56+09:00 MAY ELEVENTH.

lets just say the j2s ended their bandjourney with a bang (though most of us are hoping to continue! hahaha.)

gold with honours.
this is all i asked for, and we deserved it.
thanks to everyone in the band who made it possible,
really thanks for the sacrifice, time and effort everyone put in
especially to my section and the jtwos.

really,
LOADS OF LOVE.

and,
thank you and thank God.]]> 2007-05-14T19:53:02+09:00 dwindle my days away with my eyes halfopened,
and apparantly, im not the only one.

SOON IT WILL BE OVER.
please please please.

everyday gonna filled with band band band
im not complaining -i know we need it.
im just wondering how am i gonna squeeze studies in between the pracs.
haha cos it just hit me that i cant really wait till SYF is over to start.

perserverance!
and hell, i do believe in time management. :D

and you know something?
when you work hard for something
you will hope that everyone who is working with you is putting in that amount of effort.

so sorry if i show my pms symptoms
its not easy to curb all these when it accumulates.

i've been looking
but the star dun seem to shine
i've been searching
but i just cant seem to find.]]> 2007-04-20T02:36:29+09:00 when i was walking home today, i just felt like going on and on, without an aim, throw myself in nature's hands and see what she gives me. its been awhile since i last felt the bliss of being alone and enjoy how the quiet relax around you and you can blend in completely with the nothingness around.

have you felt it before?

the despondency i felt today was the most extreme and i found myself going back on words that ive said. but im really drained and all i wanna do is to run away from the fact that in less than twenty four hours i have to face it again.

and tell me how am i going to encourage the others when im sticking a knife at my own wrist?

and the worst thing is, not even smiling and see smiles can help.

offffffffffffffffffffff.

]]> 2007-04-05T01:03:46+09:00 it just came to me in the toilet just now how hard it is to be a parent.

(toilets are one of the best places to sort our thoughts man, haha.)

its not easy to be responsible for another life.
making choices with another's best interest at heart and at the same time you have to consider what he or she really wants

although you know that is the BEST thing for him,
how are you going to decide whether you are going to force him to do that certain something or are you going to let him have his way?

and how are you going to make all these decisions when you already have the problem of making the best decision to YOURSELF?

and how many will really last throughout the whole journey?

i also found out that before becoming a parent, there are many other ways that indirectly you will assume the responsibility of another person.
isit some sort of training?

and im surprised at my own oblivion yesterday during band. like the whole thing was just a film and im passing through, failed to notice the details.
im just hoping that everything will be over soon and everyone will be smiling again! :DDDD
must be the stupid aircon.

rah cheryl! this is my useless attempt to revive my blog!



and i really want jclife to end SOON SOON SOON
cos i need to get my life back - i never really was a great multitasker.

ohwel. nights.

]]> 2007-04-01T02:09:49+09:00

today the jthrees got back the alevel results and needless to say, the stress just started settling in again. looking at the different reactions i started asking myself how do i want to see myself this time next year, which is a rather 'duh' question since who doesnt picture themselves as jumping for joy OHMYGOD I GOT 3AS! but everytime these thoughts creep into my head, the horrible reality, that im just not NOT ready to sit for the Alevels, will just sink in. the biting of nails, pulling of hair, welling up of tears and stoning thinking what have i done to my life will just start. all these are happening more often than not these days. annoying, tsk. but yeah, its the time of the year to really start prioritizing and deciding whats important and whats not. maybe what you can do without first and what you cant. or maybe is which is more vital (?) to ur future. and where do i really want to go? i do have an end in mind, which is a good thing according to msmabelchia, but the lack of faith is making it pointless.

but on a happier note, i saw MONDAY today. probably the last time already and thank god, he looks really good with that dyed hair and eyes. gosh i could melt. but fangirling should stop now and move on. bye to useless fantasies and daydreams. hmmm i wonder how did he do?

anyway congratulations to the jthrees who have done well and those who have not, good job anyway ! whatever it is, there will be a way out alrightes. :D

and i wonder why do i lose friends so easily.

band at 0730 tmr. this is almost murderous.]]> 2007-03-03T01:52:40+09:00 a superhero is an ordinary person who believes that he cant fail.
:D

mych is really happy these days
and everyone be too !

especially the jayones.
we'll be keeping our fingers cross! -crossesfingers.

yawwwwwwwwwns.
need to stay awake in chems later.
haha.

and thanks for the very wonderful present.
i love it :D
ohyaohya! happy eighteen !

im starting to miss people. ):

]]> 2007-02-08T14:42:37+09:00 nowadays it feels like im sitting on a bench
watching everyone run past me
and although i wanna join them
my legs just dun let me.

..ohwel.

i wanna go back to firstthreemonths laaaaa.

anyway im up so early
cos i was supposed to go for band to teach the freshman.
but my freshman messaged me to say shes not going.
so haha dunno whether to feel happy or angry :|

haha sectionals was damn funny yesterday.
tried futilely to take a chorichori video.
after getting bored with celtic.
spastic people lah !

den went to dance with CYN.
sorry for being late ):
but anyway we just cannot get the legs movement and kinda look retarded.
hahaha but it was tiring fun.
we'll practice alrightes ! and get it ! woots !

den went for pizza with landis.
wahseh guilt sia. HAHA.

not gonna let stress get to me.
nonono !

NAN CHERYL and FUNG should be running around bishan park now.
WAN should be getting ready at labrodor park.
haha all of them got camp lah.
and im stuck home :|


alrightes. gonna go for band.
den maths tuition i think. yawnzXz.

hollerbacks ;
weihan eh hello ! how are you? and how on earth did you get here? hope you are fine too !
landis will link soon lah. lazyyyyyy. hahaha.
marie haha thankxZx for caring ! sorry lah. it was a wednesday so bad mood. LOL.
charms SO HAPPY TO SEE YOU TOO. although only saw ur head -.- haha. see you again soon ! :DDD
weiyang/cheryl haha CHEERED UP ALREADY :D thanks and LOVE.
van yea u work hard too !]]> 2007-01-20T09:39:16+09:00 feeling down recently.

but new school year had started.
j2j2j2.
sianzXz never felt so sad in the beginning of the year before.

haha.
but anyway
things will turn for the better soon ! :DDDD

ohwel.
happy new year everybahdee !

run for band now !]]> 2007-01-06T09:53:57+09:00 i dun seem to blog much these days.

but anyway CHRISTMAS WAS OVER.
before i knew it. i didnt even make my xmas wishlist la -.-

but anyway xmaseve was spent with cousins&relatives.
we were so caught up in RUMMY (a very very very fun game!) that we forgot to countdown -.- hahaha.
then uncle kept making vodka plus ribena for us.
man you all should have seen ken's face.
WHERE ARE THE PHOTOS ! haha.
but it was yummmayyyyy.
the food prepared was yummaaaay too !

xmas ! spent with the vballers minus phyllis who had food poisoning. think she should be okay now ((((:
anyway haha had steamboat at my house.
grace our super homeecons queen prepared everything !
with the help of us at different times.

haha eating with them were loads of fun.
the thought provoking qns
and all those funny stories plus the antics.
FAINTS. got sixpecs alr.
haha but great fun lah. :D
and we popped FOUR champagnes. -.-

on the twentysix nothing much.
went to watch NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM.
'dumdum, i want gumgum!' LMAO. i so love the stone statue.
haha then went to watch hcjc concert.
to support TANYINGCHERN.
it was nice. haha finally heard animation medley. :D

then after that went to have dinner (at nine++++pm ) at mos.
sudden craving lah woots.
then walked around in the rain which was a bad choice cos we cant find a cab afterwards.
TORTURING I TELL YOU.
haha but i like it <3

yea so today went to watch DEATHNOTE2.
i like L ! hahaha.
he's like so funny lah. the {グッド} action.
but yea. the both of them died. irritating shit. {うんこ}

haha anyway the bag that grace is psychoing me to buy is like 149.
its quite pretty lah but.. URG STRUGGLE STRUGGLE.

what to do for my parents anniversary!!?

and fungi is not online to send me songs. haha wth.

off to do maths!]]> 2006-12-29T01:46:44+09:00 when i first promised that,
i didnt know how hard it is
to have to bottle up everything inside

and you are not helping by doing what you are doing.

i cant tolerate loneliness
and thats wad im feeling now.

the rain and songs are making me emo (boy do i hate that word)
and will the rain never stop?

on a bright side,
i baked delicious double chocolate chips cookies today!
-smacks lips.
just a trial. i hope next time will be even nicer !

but i dropped ten bucks while buying the materials ingredients.
!@##%@%$^

anyway im still trying to comprehend why my sister abuses vulgarities.
other people i can understand
but with my sister somehow it just doesnt sound right.
and that coming out of me sounds awfully childish
!@$#@%$#^

i hope you have a nice time at dxo tonight :D
whalau lie to me think i stupid ah !

i need time to think
afterall, its the end of the year. :D

and yesterdays appeals was satisfying.
i really hope she will get in ! :DDDDDDDD

everytime i look at my wardrobe,
i wanna cry )': ]]> 2006-12-19T19:08:36+09:00

the view at the restuarant we had my mum's birthday dinner !

haha rare private moments of my bro and dad (:

my mum's birthday but we didnt have any photos of her
so HERE ARE YOUR FAVORITE LOBSTERS !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MUM
no matter how bad ur moodswings are,
WE STILL LOVE YOU SO MUCH ! :D

ohyea. and my aunt's mother passed away.
succumbed to cancer on friday.
/a moment of silence.

-

on a happier note,
my xmas shopping is almost done ! :DD

a few more and im done.

went shopping after tuition with grace and her parents.
haha her parents are so sweet lah
my parents hardly look as loving as them anymore.

but nevermind,
each parents to their own :D

anyway
absolutely satisfying shopping trip. /yumms
despite the painful mourns from my pocket. haha.

a special day today.
hope you enjoyed it as ive enjoyed mine :D

and im telling you
im really really dreading next year
in more ways than one.
/screams in agony.

but nevermind
ONE YEAR ONLY WAD. hahaha.

im speaking in circles/triangles/squares.
as in im not making sense again.
thanks zak for the recipe!

i shall erm go and try to attempt some maths questions
@%$#^$]]> 2006-12-17T22:19:44+09:00 a xmas blog to prepare for xmas !

and to remind myself to get all the xmas gifts ready !

haha.
going out with grace after tuition that day was STRESSFUL.
jing and her have already decided on what to do for XMAS !

rahrahrah.

speaking of them,
they are at the beach tanning now !
the sun is like scorching hot now !
what a wonderful day for tanning.

rahrahrahx2

but im gonna go claud's house for celebration !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAUDIA !
seeing all of them again makes the sacrifice worth it. rightright? (((:

yesterday was a really good day (:
went to sentosa,
sat at the planks there and talked. and futilely tried to tan.
den we went to play the sentosa luge thing.
sorry lah, played before so not very exciting HAHA.

after that we went to play the miniature golf.
hahaha so embarrassing.
everyone was kinda waiting for us to finish
so we decide to play hockey style and arcade style,
which was way way way faster. LMAO.
then we stupidly went to the wrong golf course somemore. HAHA.

yea then went to the merlion walk.
and he cut his leg.
LOL ALL MY STUPID FAULT. =X
but managed to stop the bleeding and drop the phone into the water.
frustrating x453213257654323 i tell you.
haha so sorry ): hope its healing now.

den musical fountain-ed
as impressive but abit boring the second time. hahaha.
den carlsjr-ed.
my first time okay ! cos i was craving for the onion rings.
cant finish the humogous humongous burger ):
hahaha.

GREAT DAY. thanks so much (:

aye im losing the touch for blogging.
gonna go find a way to tan now !

byebye !


]]> 2006-12-12T12:15:34+09:00 TAMPINES IKEA
is as big as its font.

haha first time have to queue to get into ikea.
but its worth it cos i bought the stuff i need !
the lamp, the boxes and the thing you know that thing. :D
-absolutely satisfying.

today was a great day.
despite feeling sick, tired and scratching all over.
and the absolutely torturous morning and afternoon.
but the kids were cute lah anyway. :D

why was today great?
cos..
WE CAN PLAY OUR ENSEMBLE !
from nothing. to actually being able to play the parts,
it feels wonderful,
like riding on a rainbow and know that it will never end. ( what rubbish! )

haha though still not really impressive or whatsover,
its good enough for me.
im contented contented contented !

LYNETTE, JARRYL !
ensemble only what right ?
just WHACK LAH.
we can endure the bandcamp man ! haha.
it will soon be over !
JIAYOU alrightes ! :D

im so excited about tmr.
im just staying home, cut hair, crystal jade, pack bag and get some quality family time.
but still, SO EXCITING. -winks.

going crazy. haha.
realised i haven blog properly in ages.

okay now to recuperate with the nice nice pillow
and pretty stars above my head.

bandcamp will be over soon ! ]]> 2006-12-03T00:58:21+09:00