Once upon a dream

I hate how i broke down.

I don't want to feel so weak.

The only thing that has been running through my head the entire week was,"Ellis, be strong."

I want to do this.

If Christopher McCandless can do it i can too. I won't be eating wild plants so i think i would be pretty safe.




Ellis, be strong.


Its so amazing how i can put =D while on msn and be feeling totally the opposite irl.

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I had a dream last night (technically this morning), that i was at a train station and the train got raided by terrorists. I was calm and succeeded in sneaking off that train (edit: okay not really, while sneaking off they were shooting me in the back but apparently i can't feel anything but i know i have lots of holes in my back) but then i left my phone and bag so i went back and got it (i know right, the me in the dream is so dumb). Maybe the me in the dream thought that she would rather be with people she know and be in danger then be in a really unfamiliar place and not know what to do.

So. The terrorist made us change train every stop to avoid getting caught by the police so everyone had to wait at the station for the next train. We tried to sneak away and hide behind some brick wall but the terrorist spotted us when he was carrying some sort of box to put somewhere. (zomg every scene seems to get stupider)


Maybe i should cut out the details. It wasn't as retarded as it seemed in my dream.

...Because this was the dream that made me wake up, tearing.

When the train came the terrorist forced me to go down the tracks to cross over to the other train. And then weirdly everyone started doing the same thing. When i finally finished climbing back up the other side, i saw Hannah and Emily (i don't know it was Emily, but i'm sure the other girl was Hannah) still at the other side because they wanted to wait to see if there was a better way across.

And then the scene cuts to where i'm holding a piece of glass and i had to use this piece of glass spike to carve something on my leg when suddenly the LCD tv showed this evil man saying stuff i couldn't hear. But i knew that it was about hannah and emily not being able to cross unless someone does something to save them but i really couldn't hear what it was because i was busy with the glass. (because hats how it goes in dramas right?) And then next thing i know was that i was too late and they were....gone. The alarm was ringing and the train was approaching and i really wanted to jump down the tracks to run over to the other side but i had frozen on the spot... with the stupid glass in my hand. Which was really the part i hated most. My dream was really vague i wish i could explain more of how i felt then but its really hard since almost more than a day has passed. Maybe it would have been more clear if i typed it out straight after i woke up because the dream was so fresh it was so scary.


( I really don't know how the glass got there or what its linked to or what it means, it was just...there. )


Even now thinking back of being in that situation, was so scary. That you couldn't do anything to save your friend and than the next thing you know, you're all alone.

The thought of losing a friend is really so scary

I really don't want to experience anything like that, if it was that bad in such a vague and stupid dream i can't imagine in real life.








P.S. Just for the friends that are reading this, i love you guys very much! The friends that grew up with me, made me laugh till my stomach hurt, shared my happy or sad moments with, friends that never have awkward moments, friends that can talk about anything at all, even the ones i never talk to anymore. They have no idea how much i care/miss them.



Please, let me have a happy dream tonight. A Disney movie would be nice, please!

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Late Of The Pier - Heartbeat from Benoit Tersiguel on Vimeo.

I think i just found my new favourite band <3.
This music video is so kickass(the starting alil unnerving thou), its too bad youtube doesn't allow us to watch it :'(

ooh and yaplog just redecorated their site, its so cute and pinky now haha.

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I typed like one full page of stuff but i navigated away accidentally. Oh well at least my memories are permanent?

oh and i realised, how important space is.

Apart.

A part.

Two words formed exactly the same can mean complete opposites with just space!

But i def prefer the 2nd one.






Maybe i can add a smiley for the lack of smiles in these photos :D

Why is my brother such a jerk? Everyone have different ways of seeing beauty, i may think a rainbow is the prettiest thing in the world while someone else may think life is the most beautiful thing on earth cuz its simple. Okay maybe my example issn't perfect but you get what i mean right?

Everybody's way of seeing things are different. But we don't go up to someone who thinks differently and throw our opinon on them and diss their's right?

(professional can-throwers i hereby hire you to throw some at my brother. Or meaner stuff i don't mind, really.)

Whatever, my posts are supposedly happy posts (at least it was until i click away from my page :'< )


Okay anyway yesterday, i bought red lipsticks while on a mission with hannahthetall.

We met at 11am (okay 10am supposedly but i couldn't wake up :'( @koreando HAHA SHIT)

Jogged over to railway mall, thought we could maybe meet up with doreen. We texted her "We await your<太> arrival (HAHAH Private joke)" But she couldn't make it. :/
On the way back, i was searching for crunchy leafs on the ground to step on. Hannah spotted one and gestured for me to go ahead.

HAHA HOW CUTE IS THAT, I love that girl!


So we walked over to westmall cuz i need to get this blackfile for productionplanning, but of cuz we had lots of pitstops along the way to popular like faceshop, the accessories store etc.

I then decided to get red lipstick. The 2 stores i went to all thought i need it for some concert, i said no at first but then i got tired so i just sighed and said yes.

And then we continued to walk back to hannah's house for some xbox! Woohoo i owned her in DOA \m/ (hahahahah actually no one was counting but i just like to think i did :D)

After that i walked back home...

(i love walking so much.)

and had a tiny shoot at my house. It was so tiring i swear, i don't know how the fashion models do it but i have a newfound respect for them cuz im sure they must have it harder.

We knocked out as soon as we lied down, of cuz kaina was alot earlier. I was just grateful she even left any space for me at all lol.








Sometimes little things friends do can mean so much. I love you guys
People whom i can talk to about, rant when im feeling fustrated. And also people that i can talk to about anything.

(that ulcer on my lip is so annoying i can't stop biting on it D:< )

oh and im def doing these the NEXT weekend.

500 things to do when you're bored

Things to do when you're bored

I was so bored today, maybe ill do these next weekend and tick them off :D

Make Star Trek door noises
(Amusement Potential: 1-2 minutes)
Stand by an electric door to a bank or something and make that silly "Scccccccchwop" sound heard whenever people popped on to the bridge to hang with Captain Kirk.


Stare at the back of someone's head until they turn around
(Amusement Potential: 2-5 minutes)
This works on the "I have the feeling I'm being watched" principle. Conduct an experiment-does this really work?

pffffft. Tried that. It worked, the guy did turn around and stare at me even though i was halfway across the room. Creepy huh.

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Jim: Wow...you look..
Pam: Terrible.
Jim: So beautiful.
Pam: My veil tore. I knew when im 5 months pregnant that im not able to wear the dress i always wanted or..high heels..
Jim: Hey. You look just as i imagined u. Pam you're so pretty. And who cares, its a stupid veil right?
Pam: No! This was the one thing i was suppose to...
Jim: -takes scissors and cuts off tie-


Season 6 epi 4

My heart melted at that part.


So yes, was it that obvious i spent my whole saturday watching season 6 of the office?

I want jim :'(

...and sethcohen.

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I finally developed my disderi films! Mostly cuz it feels like a toy and i was just trying to finish it so i can develop it. So lots of shots was like screwed (which i wouldnt post here :/ its on fb though)

They consist of the aur trip, bkk trip and just some other random stuff.









The only nicer photo out of all the 70+ photos T_T



fail shot.












Watched invictus with the divers today! It was a pretty good movie i guess. Kinda awesome for the president to be so involved with rugby. And then thanks to anthony, i found out about these.

Yes, you guessed it! Harry Potter pickup lines!! HAHAHAAH








I don't have an invisibility cloak but do you think tonight I can visit your restricted section?

I want to get my basilisk into your chamber of secrets.

My love for you burns like a dying phoenix.

Without you I feel like I'm in Azkaban and dementors are sucking away my soul.

If I was to look into the Mirror of Erised, I would see the two of us together.

Do you know the Petrificus Totalus spell? Because you make me stiff.

A couple nights with me and Moaning Myrtle will have to get a new nickname.

Are you speaking parseltongue? 'Cause you're talking to my snake.

I'm goblin. Let me stroke your vault.

You're like a bottle of Skele-Gro: growing me a bone.

Are you a dementor? Because you just took my breath away.

Did you say "Wingardium Leviosa"? Cause you've got me rising, baby.



They are totally not cheesy at all (at least to me) and would so work on me. HAHAHAHAHA
Except for the really gross ones. If some guy walks up and say anyone of those to me i would so be like,"This is the guy for me."

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH okay i kid.

At least i know he has a sense of humor right....unless he was dead serious

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But my mac won't let me transfer photos from my hp to my mac.

Dam you MAG, don't you despise my low quality photos!
Yes i just gave my macbookpro a female name like 1092.203923 secs ago.




Poker at Ant's for New Year! :)


EDIT: I guess Mag is sorry now and has changed her mind, here are some lowquality photos from swimming with phoebe today HAHA







yes this is a totally different photo with a totally different pose from the first one :)
HAHAHAHAHA *@#@*(#@(*#@)#


ESTELLA LEFT HER HOUSE ALREADY UGHHH BYEBYE!!
HAPPY 2010 GUYS!!

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...and left D:


it was a fun 3 days

I wished she stayed forever :'(

I think i have reached the stage where too many things happened that i don't know what to write about.

So anyway.... Leafy and her friends came for 4 days and left yesterday D:

I met leafy first on her 2nd day here, we wanted to surprised rosy but she wanted to mj so i had to finally spoil the surprise. -grumbles-

We bought her around bugis and town. There was this part where leafy went to get a bubble tea by herself and when me and rosy join her again she was with this guy we thought was her friend.

When we walked up it was kind of a awkward moment and he went,
"Aren't you gonna introduce your friends to me?"

So we just went ahead and introduce ourselves and so on.. Leafy was like nudging me and i just thought she bumped into me by accident.
And then leafy just walked off and said she didn't want anymore bubble tea. Turns out that guy was just some passerby she didn't know.

HAHAHA Hit on on the 3rd day! leafy is sucha hottie~





don't we just love photos with lousy quality? I know i do. HAHA











Fav I love rosy's expression~



Them looking cool and all....but its like you can't take us seriously when you see the HELLO KITTY HAHAHA



Smiley fail



Such a yw photo....







oh and also i've been eyeing this from my mom's room for a while now, until yesterday.





















I can't wait til this space gets filled up


ITS NEW YEAR EVE!

yes...guess who just got 1,000 tagged photos on facebook? Its a good sign for 2010 issn't it!

I just hope 2010 is gonna be even more kickass then 2009. PLEASE!!!!!!! -prays-

I don't want anymore shortlived happiness.

.....





And my chee is gonna do a dance before saying bye.




BYE. AND HAVE A HAPPY NEW YEAR!! :D :D :D

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The "camera/lighter/flashlight" that anyone following me on twitter would know @twittybird89 HAHA









This is the organic modelling that i rushed thru zbrush the other day to put it into my demo reel. Which is finally complete, I feel so light that i can fly~ Almost all the assignments are done. But of course there are still somemore but those can wait heh. And if anyone bothers to look closely at the faun, there are holes in it's ear and neck

I still have to redo the model in maya.

I love how we do geek talk in class! Like once, me and fel was talking on skype about assignments...

Fel: ...i think he will maya a gun and shoot me

Me: then ill maya a shield for you

fel: aww, then ill zbrush a heart for you!

And yutong was saying his head hurt the other day but instead he said it like,"this vertex in my head hurts! This particularrrrr vertex."

HAHAHA does anyone know that there's a DOPE SHEET in maya? How dope is that.









ellis likes this

The other photos are up on facebook~

Anyway last night was supposed to be a fun night with mah girls at rebel/zirca. But weirdly, it wasn't as.....fun as we thought. Everyone brought their big group of friends and it was really hard to stay together.

But i'm still glad i met up with them! They are such busy people that bumping into them seems like such a miracle hahahaha.







And then when i was walking back to the club with nana, i got approached by some complete passerby that went like, "Hey i was walking by with my friend early and i saw you again, i just had to come say hi cause you were really cute. Can i get your name?"

Selfesteem +1000 HHAHA Maybe thats what they do, tackle on low selfesteem girls at night. But yeah before i could say anything nana just pulled me away and her friend came over to ask what's going over and we were like, awkward.... so that guy said, "oh.. im going this way too..."

But hey, i was kinda impressed because he was really alone and didn't ask his friend to come over and do his dirty work for him. hmm


AhhhhhH~~~

its 2:32pm and i still haven't eaten anything.



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Can't wait for the new season of GLEE.

oh.





What's everyone else's plans for xmas?
Oh and i lent my brother my dslr for xmas so he can bring to to ms with his gf? Am i a saint or wut. THE XMAS SPIRIT IS GETTING TO ME AHHHHHHHHHHH.

i want sum l4d2.

P.S. my bro just walked in and gave me a care bear phone holder! I guess we are even then... its so cute omg heheheh.

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"....but you should know that there is some boy who is gonna like you for everything you are, including those parts that even you don't like....those are gonna be the things he likes the most."

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