カリメロ。。。 

January 31 [Wed], 2007, 20:49

ご存知ですか?カリメロ。。。そう、あの卵の殻を頭の上に乗せている黒いヒヨコです。実は私、今の今まカリメロの頭の上の卵の殻がカリメロの帽子だとしりませんでした。(^^;)まぁ〜確かに頭の上にあるし、帽子と言えば納得するけど。。。てっきり私は、それはカリメロが卵からかえった日からずっとずっと引っかかって取れない殻なんだと信じていた。。。

。。。そんな私って。。。

oshimai 

November 18 [Sat], 2006, 6:22
tabacco sutte sake nonde sono ato itami dome ippai nonde sono mama shinitai kibun da...watashi tte dame na ningen dayo yappari...ikiru kachi no nai gurai doushiyoumo nai hito da.

I was loved by someone so dearly and I, in return cheated on him and hurt him more than I can ever imagine.

Seems like some bullshit excuse, but at that time, I was in a fight with him and i felt so shitty of myself and I felt like I'm worthless...and unexpectedly, my ex comes to town, sweet talking me and telling me all sorts of things...my mind went blank and I gave into him...

After I cheated on him, all that was left in me was guilt. I don't even know why I did this to him, for it wasn't even fun to do such thing...

I needed to tell him, but i was scared...we finally straightened things out and I feeared that if i told him now, things will just get worse...but he found out. The worst case scenario I could have ever expected.

I tried talking to him...I tried everything to show that I'm truly sorry..and to ask him for another chance...He didn't give in. I mean, who would even give in to a girlfriend like that...furthermore, we've been having a lot of problems since we started going out. I know where he's coming from and I totally respect his decision.

All he's ever done to me was try his best to make me happy. He thought of me first than anyone...even himself. He'd put off anything he had to do or wanted to do for me...I mean, what more can I ask for...and I do this kind of shit to him...

But to spill out everything I'm thinking and everything I have to say, I'm going to write my perspective...I know it's bias and I know I'm just thinking about myself, but I need to spill it out somewhere before I do something stupid to myself.

2 

November 18 [Sat], 2006, 5:27
Yes I cheated on you with my ex. But you need to realize that this guy is my bestfriend before my ex. and I liked him and wanted him for the longest time. I was over him when I told you that I want to go out with you..but when we got in that fight and when we were on that break, he'd tell me things that would make me feel good about who I am. I needed that and I gave in. After all that we made out...it felt good for a moment for it was so nostalgic to be able to spend time with him. I've known him since 4 years ago and we shared a lot of time together, i know him in and out and honestly, it was just too hard for me to resist.

But after that, all I had was guilt and shame. I kept thinking things like.."what would you think..." "I need to tell you"...but I just couldn't say it to you. My ex left town on the day of your last day at work. I told him that day that I want him to forget about what happened that night, and don't come back to me and try to get back with me. I also told my ex that I really think I'm falling in love with you.

Seemed like everything was working out great between us, and I really enjoyed the last few days with you. I was falling fasdt and hard on you ever single day...even when I didn't see you, I kept thinking of you and I couldn't keep my mind off of you. I finally realized that I love you. I was so scared to tell you or even think that I was in loe with someone, I was tired of getting hurt after telling someone and I loved him and getting in fights and breaking up...

I was thinking too much about myself...and not enough about you. I knew you loved me and I knew you weren't saying that to me because you knew i wasn't ready for it and I'd be troubled...you always think of me.

I wanted to tell you that I loved you that wednesday night...but you found out. The happiest day turned out to be the worst day for both you and I. I'm terribly sorry for what I caused and I know I'm so selfish for saying this to you or even thinking this after all that, but..I would do anything and everything to get your love back from you. I'm worthless without you, and I need you to be a part of my life...I need you back because you stole my heart from me...or at least slap me to wake me up and make me realize that you're over me and there's nothing I can do about it...

Not only to him, but i also trouble all my friends and even my family. I'm always getting sick, sent to the ER, and hospitalized... and making people worry about my health constantly...I can't even make it to work or school because I'm always so sick...I always worry my parents and friends with unnecessary things and I can't do anything in return. I'm using up my parents' money for hospital bills...something they shouldn't have to be paying for if i were healthier...but I just keep getting worse...

My friends are always there, visiting me at the hospital, craving their valuable time...i know they should bee somewhere else, or be studying...they're all busy people...and my boyfriend..he's the busiest out of everyone, but he always came to see me...and he looked tired every day he ame...but he told me to not worry and he told me that he's doing it because he wants to...sweetest thing.

I probably should have died that day at Queens. then I wouldn't have caused trouble to him, or anyone else...I know a lot of people would cry for me...but I wouldn't have caused more trouble to anyone...especially my boyfriend.

I wish him the best in life, and I hope he find someone that's good as he is...it's gonna be hard for him to do that because he's the best anyone can ever find. I'm glad I met someone like him, and furthermore, I'm so fortunate to be able to receive his love. Thank you for everything. Love you.

psychic 

October 22 [Sun], 2006, 11:11
I went to 健康足心(Kenko Sokushin)and my massage therapist and I were talking about this psychic who lives in Nuuanu. I've heard of her a few times before and people always tell me that she's a really good psychic...

So anyways, そうとう当たるらしいから絶対にそのサイキックに会いたいと思っていたら私のマッサージ・セラピストから一言:”I'll go with you if you have no one else to go with." 

ということでI am gonna go see that psychic in the near future. yay

Autumn... 

October 22 [Sun], 2006, 10:33
10月半ばに入り、夜がだんだん涼しく感じてきた今日この頃。ハワイにも季節の変わり目が訪れ、目映く照りつける夏の太陽は落ち着きを取り戻したかのように和らぎ秋色へと染まってゆく。。。

日本ではもう紅葉も見え始め、町ではブーツやコートを着ている人が目立ってきているのであろう。I miss autumn in Japan.

そんな「のほほ〜ん」なことばかりを考えてる私だが、最近ちょっとした異変にきずいた。それは。。。秋=食欲の秋=I gained weight. 

「ヤバイ、シット、I gotta do something about it.」と大分前から思っていたのは確かで対策を考えつつも今の今まで何ひとつとしてダイエットになるようなことをしていなかった私。。。マジでバカだ。

そこで考えてひらめいた!

私に最も適しているダイエット方法は。。。

食事制限+痩せるまで洋服ショッピング禁止。という方法だ。確実に痩せるしお金もたまる。Howすばらしいis that!?

So yeah...that's my plan. だから、 When you see Ayaka, please don't feed her anything.

busy but bored. 

October 02 [Mon], 2006, 7:06
Are you...

1. A Cuddler?
no.

2. A morning person?
no, but i wake up early.

3. Are you a perfectionist?
about certain things.

4. An only child?
nope

5. Religious?
nope

6. Wearing pajamas?
yes

7. Left handed?
righty

Last...

1. Song downloaded?
M-flo's orbit-3

2.Person you talked to on the phone?
Alex

3. Text?
Alex

4. Message over myspace?
Tiffany

5. Instant message?
Alvin

Today...

1. Wore:
Going to wear...a black t-shirt and jeans...work sucks

2. Was today better than yesterday?
I'll find out..


Tomorrow...

1. Is:
Monday...and I have work...UGH

2. Got any plans:
work...wanna hangout.


Favorite:

1. Number:
1

2. Color:
blue, white, black, pink

3. Season:
all four seasons. demo i love winter

Currently...

1. Single?
nope.

2. Needing:
sleep and a day off

3. Wanting:
to spend time with you.

Q's and A's

Q: What was the first thing you did this morning?
turn off my alarm, and go back to sleep.

Q: Last thing you ate:
cereal

Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
YES, my busy schedule, homework, group work, and the list goes on.

Q: What's annoying you right now?
my busy weekend schedule

Q: Where is the last place you went?
GS

Q: Do you smile often?
I'd wanna and I probably do, but it can be fake often times.

Q: Do you wish upon stars?:
yes

Q: Are you a friendly person?
can be.

Q: What color shirt are you wearing?
blue

Q: Do you have more guy or girl friends?
guy friends

Q: What was your last thought before you went to sleep last night?
tomorrow is a busy day...sigh

Q: What are you about to do?
get ready for wooorrrrkkk

Rate life as of right now 1-10? (10=best)
6

What do you hear right now?
music.

Anything hurt on your body right now?
my brain

Whats your job position called?
I have many, but today I am a...nail technician and a translator

Whens your birthday
May 12th

What was your elementary schools mascot?
dolphins.

Whats your favorite bottled water?
japanese ones like rokkou no oishii mizu...

What were you doing at 9 pm last night?
talking to Hiromi on the phone...?

Did you attend your High School prom?
yes.

Did you go to someone else's prom?
yes.

Do you prefer coffee or tea?
both

Something red within 5 feet of you?
a lighter

The weirdest thing that has happened this week?
im not single anymore...?

Ever done the Electric Slide?
yeah, in Utah, don't ask.

How much French do you know?
just a few words and phrases.

Ever crash a car, been in accident?
yes, because the bitch parked so far from the curb and i backed into it...

Do you look good in yellow?
what kind of yellow....demo im not a "yellow" kind of person.

Favorite kind of pizza?
the italian crispy kind...

Ever make fun of a homeless person?
when they're drunk.

How many driving tickets have you had?
1

Do you own your own house?
someday

At what age do you want to get married?
when I'm ready

Have you ever been married?
hell no

Have you ever had to get a restraining order?
no

How many kids do you have/want?
1 or 2

Ketchup or Mustard?
ketchup

ネイルとなくした目標。 

October 02 [Mon], 2006, 6:09
もう10月。。。今年もまたネイルオリンピックが開催されます。今回はうちのネイルサロンのスタッフが多数出場するんです。みんな仕事の合間のスカルプやアートの練習に大忙し。でもそのみんなの頑張りがとても私には素敵に見える。何かを目標に頑張ってるみんなはとても輝いていてプレッシャーやストレスでとてもピリピリしてるだろうけれどとてもイキイキとしている。

私も何かを目標に頑張りたい。でも何を。。。

I really wanna go back to the nail salon...it was so much fun when I use to work tthere...my coworkers were all nice to me, I had fun doing people's nail, and best of all, it was such a great feeling to know that people appreciate me for what I can offer to them, and that its not something everyone can do. ハワイで一、二を争う有名ネイルサロンのネイリストとして働けることは私にとってとてもself-esteem boostingで誇りに持てることだった。でも体の体調のことでやめなければいけないことがとても自分にとって悲しい。I miss my job. 今の仕事も楽しいけど何も得ている気がしない。。。

私には今何の自身もない。ただ毎日を平凡に生きているだけ。でもそれではつまらない。平凡な人生なんかでは物足りない、私は平凡な人生を送るために生まれてきたのではない。そう信じたいしそう思いたい、だから私はそう信じる。

ヒロミありがとう。 

September 22 [Fri], 2006, 5:14
thank you Hiromi

you always make me feel better.そうさ、男なんて何万といる生き物なのだ。。。一人や二人のことで落ち込んでいる場合じゃない。。。私にはもっと好い人がいるはずだ。しかももともと恋なんてしてなかったんだからなおさらI should be 開き直ってる。

i swear this is the last one for the day... 

September 21 [Thu], 2006, 14:43
1.Who was your first prom date? Youki Moriwaki for my first two proms

2. Who was your first roommate? I forgot her name...she was only in school for 2 weeks and went home to WA...but my next one was Beej.

3. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk the first time? screwdriver

4. What was your first job? nail technician

5. What was your first car? integra

6. When did you go to your first funeral? when I was 10.

7. How old were you when you first moved away from your hometown? 18...haha

8. Who was your first grade teacher? Ms. Caton

9. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane? I don't remember...

10. When you snuck out of your house for the first time, who was it with? Masami, went clubbing

11. Who was your first Best Friend and are you still friends with them? hmmmmm....Rei? I still talk to her occasionally.

12. Where was your first sleepover? Rei's house

13. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day? Hiromi

14. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a bridesmaid or a groomsmen? none.

15. What is the first thing you do in the morning? turn off my alarm and go back to sleep

16. What was the first concert you ever went to? I don't remember...

17. First tattoo or piercing? ears

18. First celebrity crush? forgot

19. Age of first real kiss? 11th grade...late bloomer to the max.

20. First crush? HAHA its actually when I was in kindergarten...but we actually randomly hooked up 12 years later...small world.

21. First real love? that one guy

22. What is the first thing you think of when you hear the rain? do i have my umbrella?!

23. First thing you think of when you wake up in the morning? 7:30 already?!

24. First thoughts of President Bush? can he talk...?

25. What is the first thing that makes you smile about the person you care about? anything

bored???μ???B 

September 21 [Thu], 2006, 13:33
1. Story behind your MySpace song:
I love m-flo and the lyrics say what I wanna say.

2. What month were you born in?
May

3. Where do you live?
Hawaii...for now

4. Wallet:
blue dior.

5. Dream car:
hmm...

6. Jewelry worn daily:
ring, earrings, belly pierce, and usually a neklace.

7. Love life:
downhill to the max.

8. Cologne/Perfume:
romance/ralph lauren//poison/dior
9. CD in stereo:
m-flo utada hikaru and some bs cd for jpn423...

.:W H A T A R E Y O U :. . .

10. Wearing:
pajamas...

11. Wanting:
to make you feel sorry.

12. The last thing you ate?
bagel and cream cheese

13. Something you are afraid of:
failure

14. Do you like candles?
yes.

15. Do you believe in love?
I'd want to.

16. Do you believe in soul mates?
yes, and i know who.

17. Do you sleep naked?
no, do you?!

18. Do you like seafood?
yes

19. Do you consider yourself a study freak?
no way.

20. Do you like tattoos?
not on me.

21. What's something you wish you could understand better?
you, me, myself and I.

22. Are you shy around a crush?
depends...

23. Do you have a bf/gf?
no

24. Got any plans for the weekend?
nooooooooooooope. bored boreder and boredest

25. Who do you miss?
my family, friends, soulmate, and chappy-chan

26. What does your MySpace headline mean?
kyo-ka-sui-getsu: something beautiful but untangible

27. Elaborate on your default photo:
Shun took a picture of me sleeping? not really...at shun's house

28. Who is the first person on your top 8?
Hiromi chan

29. What's your relationship with the people in your top 3?
bestfriends

30. What exactly are you wearing?
pink t-shirt and black shorts...my pajamas

31. What is your current problem?
being frustrated and the smallest things and not being able to let it go.

32. What do you love most?
home, my family and myself

33. What makes you most happy?
when I spend time with people I like

34. Are you musically inclined?
I hope so...

35. Which shoe goes on first?
left

36. If you could go back in time, and change something....
i wish i could have told my friend not to do something.

37. Ever have a near death experience?
yeah...respiratory arrest at the E.R. I saw the light.

38. Name an obvious quality you have?
I'm Japanese

39. What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now?
Exclusive M-flo loves Sowelu

40. Any celeb you would marry?
why would I wanna marry a celebrity, when I can marry a hot rich person with privacy?

41. Who will cut and paste this first?
someone as bored as i am.

42. Name someone with the same birthday as you:
Alvin, Anri-san

43. Do you have a crush on someone:
maybe

44. Have you ever vandelized someones property?
yes.

45. Been in a fight?
billions.

46. Have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
no.

47. What's the first thing you notice about the preferred sex?
face and smile

48. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
soy cafe mocha

49. Say something totally random about you?
I am glooooooooooomy to the max.

50. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
no........

51. How old are you?
21.

52. Do you wear a watch?
sometimes

53. Do you have anything pierced?
ears, belly

54. Do you have any tattoos?
no

55. Do you like pain?
depends.


56. Do you like to shop?
that's something I'm pro at.

57. What was the last thing you paid for with cash?
some salt aroma scrub at the nail salon

58. What was the last thing you paid for with a credit card?
books

59. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Hiromi

60. What is on your desktop background?
flower

61. Do you like redheads?
not really.

62. Do you know any twins?
yes

63. Do you have any weird relatives?
yeah

64. What was the last movie you watched?
step up

65. What was the last book you read?
hungry catipillar...i read it to my boss' kid...

66. Did you or do you go to college?
going

67. What are your favorite pair of pants that you own?
hmmm my 575's

68. What is your favorite day of the week?
Saturday.

69. What are you going to do after you answer this question?
try to relax
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