There is something that is kind of bothering me...
It's about what is happening in Japans entertainment world....
Someone I was a fan of way back in the day when I lived in Japan recently got outed by his friend..
His Best Friend
if I might add...
This saddens me, and hurts me a great deal.
because his gay,
I don't give a flying fuck about that
But the fact that someone he trusted, outed him...
This is hurtful beyond words,
I understand that there is a sigma of being gay, and a actor in Japan,
And to be quite honest it sounds and looks a lot like old Hollywood...
Not that it has changed too much here...
Now you may think I know nothing of Japan, since I write solely in English,
But I was born and raised in Japan...
Yeah, I don't live there NOW, but its my home.
It hurts to hear that he is hurt, he was a great actor and am sure loved
every minute of it
This news, NO, the story, hurts me in exactly two ways.
1) The fact that someones living dream was crushed, by greed
2) The betrayal
The fact that someones dream died right in front of our eyes is soul crushing.
Whether you were a fan or not, it must hurt.
And its so evident he is right now, just fucked up somewhere, lost, confused, and crushed.
I... I know how that feels, no I am not gay, and wasn't outed, but I know the feeling of being
I was in high school...
Yeah, I over reacted, but I tried to come to terms, and forgive them..
When it initially happened, I was so hurt I wanted to hide.
But I lived in a such a small town, it was impossible.
So, I did the next best thing, ignore.
But it fucked me up,
I haven't been able to make a solid friend, nor hold a solid friendship since then...
I am 25 fucking years old...
It happened almost 10 freaking years ago...
I am not over it, and I don't know if I ever will....
High school really was a fucked up time of my life,
I was always carrying the fear,
Couldn't tell anyone what was happening, nor, tell my parents how I felt
Not because I was a bratty teenager, but because I honestly felt bad about how I felt.
I didn't want to hurt my parents feelings.
I still don't talk about it.
I never ever, told anyone what happened that day,
They may have already forgotten about it, and I'm stuck here.
This was about the same time my dream died.
I wanted to go to school in Sanfran.
My dad told me NO.
And then I found out I couldn't go anyway.
I was so Crushed
I was lost.
I remember faking my way through the friendship just so I could get booze and drink
Drink till I could feel my heart pound, alive!!
Thankfully fate brought me back to this particular dream.
I may not go to Sanfran for it, but hey!!
Its a step, and that all that matters right now.
I feel bad for him, but I somehow wish he will know that his gonna be okay!!
The story will fade, as many scandals and stories before...
It hurts today, well these few days since the story first broke out.
Good luck kid, its gonna be okay...